EtOH help - page 2
Hello. I'm wondering if any of you have ever broken the cycle of alcohol abuse before it broke you. I am a 30 year old senior nursing student, about to graduate at the end of the year and I have a... Read More
Dec 20, '06Joined: Sep '03; Posts: 2,389; Likes: 2,886I know very little on a personal level about alcoholism. My one suggestion though is that you NOT go to anyone in your nursing program; student or instructor/counselor. Just trust me on this one. Find ANYONE else to share your problems with. To your instructors and nursing school instructors always give the image of "everything is fine; everything is good".
I wish you the best in finding the help you need. I fear though that if you share with nursing school people and you don't follow the exact program they want; then you may be bounced from the program. I've seen it happen (for other problems, not necessarily substance related).
Dec 20, '06Joined: Aug '06; Posts: 9,034; Likes: 13,994Quote from larsell303Please re-read what you've written. Please attend an AA meeting and then you can decide where to go from there. I applaud you for having the courage to try and open up here, please continue to advocate for your self and your life. Jules
- I have a serious drinking problem that no one knows about.
- Each morning after I tell myself I am going to quit, but by the time evening rolls around I am able to convince myself that I will have "just one beer with dinner."
- Yes, most of the important people in my life have witnessed me doing stupid things while drunk
- I am pretty good at appearing functional and really bad at asking for help.
- If I don't break this pattern, I know that someday, somewhere, I will screw up in a way that I can not fix.
- I know that I can stop drinking after one or two drinks. It just doesn't happen often when I am home alone with a full 6-pack.
- The thought of never having another drink is something I can deal with, but the idea of forever having the label of "alcoholic" as part of my identity is not.
- I set up an appointment with a counselor through the hospital's employee assistance program, and later cancelled it because I couldn't deal with the idea of being forever saddled with the label of "alcoholic", and never being able to enjoy a drink with my family or friends.
- I know that no one here cares about my grades or how many hours I work, but I posted them simply to illustrate the nature of my problem as a psychological dependence, rather than a physical dependence.
- I could quit today and with no worries about withdrawal, if I had a compelling enough reason to do so.
- That is, I know my habits are seriously unhealthy, but at this point, I haven't done anything where the damages I have caused surpass the level of embarrassment, so the choices are all mine.
- I'm not convinced I have a disease. Perhaps I'm just an idiot who makes a lot of poor choices. Either way, willpower still has a role in overcoming psychological dependence.
- I suspect that the nature of support necessary to overcome psychological dependence is somewhat different from that necessary to overcome physical dependence.