EtOH help - page 2

Hello. I'm wondering if any of you have ever broken the cycle of alcohol abuse before it broke you. I am a 30 year old senior nursing student, about to graduate at the end of the year and I have a... Read More

  1. by   TiffyRN
    I know very little on a personal level about alcoholism. My one suggestion though is that you NOT go to anyone in your nursing program; student or instructor/counselor. Just trust me on this one. Find ANYONE else to share your problems with. To your instructors and nursing school instructors always give the image of "everything is fine; everything is good".

    I wish you the best in finding the help you need. I fear though that if you share with nursing school people and you don't follow the exact program they want; then you may be bounced from the program. I've seen it happen (for other problems, not necessarily substance related).
  2. by   Jules A
    Quote from larsell303
    • I have a serious drinking problem that no one knows about.
    • Each morning after I tell myself I am going to quit, but by the time evening rolls around I am able to convince myself that I will have "just one beer with dinner."
    • Yes, most of the important people in my life have witnessed me doing stupid things while drunk
    • I am pretty good at appearing functional and really bad at asking for help.
    • If I don't break this pattern, I know that someday, somewhere, I will screw up in a way that I can not fix.
    • I know that I can stop drinking after one or two drinks. It just doesn't happen often when I am home alone with a full 6-pack.
    • The thought of never having another drink is something I can deal with, but the idea of forever having the label of "alcoholic" as part of my identity is not.
    • I set up an appointment with a counselor through the hospital's employee assistance program, and later cancelled it because I couldn't deal with the idea of being forever saddled with the label of "alcoholic", and never being able to enjoy a drink with my family or friends.
    • I know that no one here cares about my grades or how many hours I work, but I posted them simply to illustrate the nature of my problem as a psychological dependence, rather than a physical dependence.
    • I could quit today and with no worries about withdrawal, if I had a compelling enough reason to do so.
    • That is, I know my habits are seriously unhealthy, but at this point, I haven't done anything where the damages I have caused surpass the level of embarrassment, so the choices are all mine.
    • I'm not convinced I have a disease. Perhaps I'm just an idiot who makes a lot of poor choices. Either way, willpower still has a role in overcoming psychological dependence.
    • I suspect that the nature of support necessary to overcome psychological dependence is somewhat different from that necessary to overcome physical dependence.
    All of the treatment options I am aware of involve admitting you have a problem and forever abstaining from alcohol. That is a lot to commit to.
    Please re-read what you've written. Please attend an AA meeting and then you can decide where to go from there. I applaud you for having the courage to try and open up here, please continue to advocate for your self and your life. Jules