You did overreact, but it is quite understandable, especially if the other nurse is experienced (which it sounds like she was). When I first went to nursing school, I wanted to be a baby nurse, most of us did. Well that changed as soon as I did my OB clinical. Seeing hurt, sick, or dead babies is not something that I can handle emotionally. I would not be able to "leave work at work". You will be able to find a specialty that is right for you. I worked in psych, med/surg, and geriatrics. I prefer geriatrics because in my mind they have lived their lives and death is natural at this point in life. In geriatrics, I feel like I am helping the patient and the family during the death process. This is also why I could never work ER - seeing sick, injured, or dead babies and children would not be something I could ever, ever deal with. I always believed it is the OB nurses who have it the toughest; I could never do what they do. So just keep going, you WILL find your niche. We all do eventually. And one more thing, that mean nurse that was calling the baby "it" may have been doing so because that is HER way of dealing with a dead baby. Maybe that is what gets her through it. I'm not saying she was right, but we just don't know what her reasoning is. Who knows how many dead babies this nurse took care of. Who knows how many died in her arms or for that matter hung on for dear life when she knew it would end badly anyway. Believe me, I think calling the baby "it" is disgusting, but try to see her side, and maybe feel her pain - even if she doesn't show it on the outside anymore. Good luck and God bless.