your own urinary meatus is.... standing in the shower with a mirror, and lying on the bed...both positions work pretty well. I catheterize about 6-8 females a day in E.R. The variation is amazing. You can ask the doc to point it out to you with a Q-tip.....that will be a help till you have done a few. Females who are overweight, had several babies, elderly, swollen, with old scars, with infections and rashes, and with herpes and genital warts all can present a challenge. I lie them flat, ask if they have been catheterized before, tell them I will explain as I go along, show them the cotton ball wipes and tell them this is a little cold, and what I am doing, and then tell them I am going to put the catheter in now.. and tell them it does not hurt. Try to alleviate anxiety. However , when I go to the urologist, he just wipes once and sticks it in, no explanation...nothing. There is always someone around who can hold the flashlight, support a leg in proper position, etc. and help "search" on the hard to find ones, so, relax...you are lucky to be working alongside "pros" who are supportive and willing to teach. In a month, your fears will be "history."