"Have you considered seeing your PCP, in case there is a physical component influencing your actions? Say, hyperthyroidism, hypothyroidism, adult ADD, etc??"
Geez, I didn't even think of that. No, I haven't ever been checked for those but thanks: not to be a hypochondriac, but maybe I should ask the doc next time. Previously, when I've felt bad or couldn't function, I've run crying to psychaitrists who say that I'm severely depressed and anxious and give drugs which make me feel funny(hee hee), but not really much better. I usually just pull it together by waiting it out instead of depending on a drug.
Its just that I've always been a really very grouchy, messy, lazy, and sometimes seriously dysfunctional person in private even though I can, at the same time, do very well at work and school. But, tho I do well, I'm not really excellent and I was wondering if the people who are excellent at work are excellent because they try to be excellent with everything even to how their desk at home and private planner and house mothering skills are arranged. Like, if they try to avoid dysfunctionality at all costs in all corners in life.
But, It seems from the responses that most people can both do excellent work at the job and be sloppy at home and in their private lives and they're okay with that.
3rdShiftGuy, your post is very encouraging. Thanks.