Last night I had one of those "night from hell" busy nights. 2 Admissions, 2 discharged, never less than 6 patients, a paracentesis drain and tube feeding running...
I forgot to give a Lasix IV. Then saw it later and forgot I hadn't given it and charted it. And in my hurry forgot to wipe a patient's skin with a prep before giving an insulin injection.
I feel like this hospital is creating overwhelming situations for me then smacking my hand when I make mistakes because I'm rushed and I'm new. Our average pt load in 6-7 on evening for a general med-surg unit.
I would quit but there is a complication. If I would I would owe back the 4k bonus I took. But quite frankly I feel like I will be fired before then anyway. I'm starting to think it'll be worth paying back to go to a different hospital.
I talk to my superviser on Monday about all this and I know it's not going to be good. I'm scared for my job and maybe even for my license.
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Pendragon