I apologize.. - page 4

I apologize... To the DON: For giving me a chance to work on your unit. I apologize for the opportunity that was given to me as a new grad. I apologize for giving my notice effective... Read More

  1. by   wildboo
    What a bummer way to start your career! So, sit down and have a good cry. In fact, cry for a day or two (I'm a cryer). Then, take a deep breath and say, "This is just a JOB! J O B JOB!" Yes, you need one to pay bills, but no job is worth what that one put you through. You never want to be put in a position where you will a) wreck your health, b) almost kill somone or c) ACTUALLY kill someone! You WILL find a place that suits you. Also realize that even in a good job, you work with jerks, you will be understaffed sometimes, you will transport patients to Guam (isn't there another nurse in the unit with working legs??), you'll sometimes get your butt kicked up and down the unit and, what on Earth is a lunch break? I don't think I've had one since 1999! I still regularly work 14-18 hour days. Sometimes I have to cover a unit 100 miles from where I live and do the 15 hour day! But, I work with great people (a few jerks, but hey, God was pretty liberal with the sprinkling). It may take awhile, but you'll find a place much better suited for you. And, you'll learn to find your balance so you can actually spend time caring for your patients, and not just chasing paperwork and lab reports.

    Take heart my dear, we ALL get kicked! I just did a rapid response assignment a few months ago, and there were several dozen, well-seasoned nurses drinking down in the bar because we had all had the very same terrible-horrible-no-good-very-bad day. Every. Last. One. And I got there late, so I missed the first wave. You are in fabulous, beautiful company
  2. by   drowningdaily
    I started my career working for a dreadful don who was so bad she was asked to resign. I left and felt like a failure. I also felt guilty for not doing enough for my patients. Please know it gets better. Your experience will help you appreciate the right job when you find it! Best of luck.
  3. by   chevyv
    Well, I can certainly relate as I sit here after working yet another night late. I was sitting thinking how awful I felt that I spend so much of my time doing paperwork, that I rarely actually see/touch a patient anymore. I'm starving for that contact. I work psych so it's so important to touch base with pts and I can count on one finger how many patients I actually had contact with tonight besides my admit. One, that it It's becoming too little or too much.

    Wishing you the very best on your new job and I love that not one post was bashing!
  4. by   letsbefriends
    After reading all the responses from my last post, brought tears to my eyes. I don't know what to say, but thank you, thank you so much from the bottom of my heart for all the wonderful kind words! The amount of support from this forum is extraordinary!

    Reading all the responses from all of you made me realize that I made the right decision, again thank you.

    I will be starting orientation next week and I am ecstatic! Regardless of what had happened, I will not let the previous job affect me and make me feel like a failure. I will definitely come into this job with an open mind and be the best that I can be!
  5. by   drowningdaily
    Good luck with your new job!
  6. by   HeartofTexas
    [QUOTE=letsbefriends;7125308]I apologize...

    That could have been me! My first job, I worked on a Med/Surg floor for 4 months and left. I was never sure if I was doing the whole job, properly, and that safety was an issue. I wanted to give more to my patients, but was reprimanded for doing so. Every time I spent too much time with a patient, I am denying another patient care. So what do you do?

    I am a older, earned my RN at age 47. I found a job 3 miles from my home and got myself together. I worked for a year in a residential psych facility for kids and absolutely loved it! I've raised my own, so it is extremely rewarding to help other families come together again. BUT... if I stay in psych, I will be a psych nurse. I hadn't been a nurse long enough to set all my skills; so what do I do?

    I want to give CARE to my patients. Really and truly take care of them and be sure they are safe, stable, and happy when I leave them. I want to ensure continuity of care. This led me to home health. I LOVE home health. I can do all of the above & more. I work Monday through Friday and on call once a month. I finish Friday's charting on Saturday morning... at home. I am the hands, eyes and ears (and nose) of the MD and call orders in to them. (Embrace the SBAR! No one wants to hear rambling stuff.) The patients are happy and safe, the docs are covered and glad to keep patients out of the waiting room and ER. Sometimes we convince patients to go to ER when it's necessary; it's part of the safety issue. I can spend 30-60 minutes with a patient to address their problems. I may see the patient weekly, more or less, depending on the problems. Coordination of care is easy with the right team of PTs, OTs, STs, MSWs, etc. We work with wound centers and get to do wound care, which was very limited in hospital setting, as was phlebotomy. I still get to work with O2, trachs, catheters, IV antibiotics, etc. so my skills are good and current. I love to teach & have the time to do it now.

    I told my Home Health Exec Director I would "do right by" her if she gave me a chance. I know my nursing, gave the valedictorian speech at graduation, and am old enough to know what I DON'T know and to ask. I feel from here, I could work anywhere, but I have no desire to work on a hospital floor again. Ever. And for those of you who do, my hat is off to you. I was running around so much, there was barely time to think. Send your patients home and let home health continue their care so they don't end up back with the same dx you sent them home with. No one is going to get paid for that in the near future anyway.

    That's how I solved my hospital-nursing dilemma. Just know that in nursing, there is a job for every type of nurse. Everyone has their strengths and there is a nursing job for yours! Hope this helps someone.
  7. by   DoeRN
    I love this. Even though I complain and complain I do genuinely care about my patients. But there is so much crap I have to put up with that it is extremely care about anyone. I think every nurse who is going through this should read your post. I needed to hear this and will direct my friend to this post too.

    Good luck to you. And yay for getting out of a toxic environment.

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