I am a recent graduate in May and took the NCLEX in July. I had a job lined up, but of course they could not allow me to start in that position anymore. The hospital was helpful and gave me the option of starting as an LPN by permit, which I thought would be a great option for me because I would at least be in the hospital setting and gaining more experience. However, I started my job yesterday and I'm in orientation with several classmates I graduated with who are either RN's who passed the NCLEX or are working as an RN by permit. I was terrified when I walked into the room because I didn't want anyone knowing that I failed.
We were required to go around the room, give an introduction and state our position hired. My heart started beating faster and I got butterflies in my stomach when I found out we had to do that....luckily at the last minute I thought of just introducing myself and stating that I just graduated and was going to be a nurse on the 12th floor. Well, the thing I am very worried about now is that tomorrow is the first day we are starting on the floors, so now everyone will definitly find out I failed because I have to wear an LPN name tag/uniform. I am not ashamed at all for being an LPN, because I admire their hard work and effort and know that they perform several of the tasks an RN performs. I am just so scared of facing my peers and having them find out I didn't make it. Has anyone else been in this situation or have any advice? I know I shouldn't care what other people think, but it's more of a personal thing where I feel ashamed for not passing the boards. If anyone can give any suggestions I'd greatly appreciate it! Thanks so much!