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Today is extremely difficulty for me. I just started this new job that I absolutely love. I work in a very busy hallway and popped a noon med for one of my residents. I placed it in the med cart and was pulled away. I always initial as I pop and signed. However at the end of my shift, I did not give it. I now understand how early documentation isn't good at all, but I had no intentions to do what I did. I deeply apologized to my supervisor and was thankful for the opportunity but now I'm afraid of what will happen to my license.
Again, I am not making excuses. I made a major mistake but I would never ever intend to not give someone their medication on purpose or for convenience. I would like to know what I can expect or how soon I will hear something. I am so afraid.
Okay thank you again for all of your comforting words. I wish my anxiety wasn't so bad.
Deep breath in, deep breath out.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things that I can and the wisdom to know the difference.
You've done nothing horrible, rest easy.
I think you are the victim of some bullies and all you can do is stick up for yourself in the long run. Don't worry about this please.
You will get through this. Try not to torture yourself. Unless you really need to be online, try to take a break from the web. Try to watch some movies, or maybe go for a walk. Do things that make you happy and help you to not over analyze this situation. Before you know it, you will be working again doing something.
You will get through this. Try not to torture yourself. Unless you really need to be online, try to take a break from the web. Try to watch some movies, or maybe go for a walk. Do things that make you happy and help you to not over analyze this situation. Before you know it, you will be working again doing something.
Okay. I agree 100%. I'm logging off for now. Thank you to everyone
LPNewbie, let go and let God. Find some comfort food to put into your stomach and breathe in and out slowly.
I am concerned about you because you aren't taking care of your basic needs. Please DO something to take care of yourself. Ruminating can be so self-defeating and self-destructive, you don't need that now.
The people at your former employer did you wrong, and quite frankly, in the long run you will be better off.
I hope you don't take my post as an admonishment...I just care...
Good for you for filling out some applications. NOW GO EAT!!
I understand you loved that job but it might be you'll find another one you love just as much. There may even be a chance to go back after some time passes and/or they get a new DON. Glad you are filling out some applications. Hope you are sleeping better soon and less stressed.
Thank you for your reply. I haven't been sleeping good nor eating. My depression and anxiety skyrocketed overnight. I think having time to process such a shocking decision and realizing that this isn't a dream but real life has made it so much worse. I keep thinking about my license. I also keep thinking that maybe I'm too dumb to be a nurse, even though it is the only job I've ever loved.
I'm too dumb to be a nurse.
Totally not true.
If your best friend was sitting across from you and they were going through the exact same thing you are right now, what would you tell them that you are not telling yourself? Be gentle with yourself. All we can do in life is to do the best we can with what we know & what is available to us at that time.
LPNewbie, LPN, LVN
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I took a 2 hour nap but woke up because of my anxiety. I still haven't eaten yet but I'm going to try. I applied for a few jobs so I think that's a start. People are saying not to worry about my license as it doesn't seem like it will be at jeopardy but it's hard. I appreciate your prayers and I am incredibly thankful.