When I was in nursing school I was friends with group of people and it helped a lot with surviving nursing school. I never hung out with them outside of school or clinicals though. I have always been reserved and I'm a shy around new people, but once I get used to being around someone I slowly get more comfortable around them and talk more. It seems as if I have always had a somewhat of hard time making friends, even in high school because I have always acted more mature for my age and a lot of people grow tired of the one who is always serious. When I started working night shift it was the same way, but now I feel comfortable around my co-workers and we have a lot of fun at work. When I was in school I always thought to myself "I'll have plenty of time to make friends and have fun after I'm finished with school", but it's totally the opposite. I have tried to do activities with friends from nursing school, it only worked out one time and I have tried to reach out and make time again but my efforts are always pointless and I am growing tired of trying to reach out and just to be ignored. It seems even harder to hang out with co-workers because you have to find the same days your off and it's even harder being a night shifter.
I work with a guy that I went to high school with and he said a couple of months ago "when are we going to hang out outside of work?", so I said whenever you want to. I'm not sure if he likes me or not, but I do sort of like him. A few weeks ago I decided to ask him if he wanted to go to a movie, after the movie he came up to me gave me a friendly hug and I totally didn't expect that, but I didn't mind. He said "text me later", I texted him a few times and I haven't gotten a reply. This past week he mentioned he was going to go to the movies to see this new movie and the next night he said the same thing. I do not know if he was trying to hint at something or not. I was the one who last time asked if he wanted to hang out and all I know is I'm not going to stick my head out again ask him. I'm trying to be an adult about it and be straight forward. I don't know what to think about the whole situation and it has begun to frustrate me. I'm looking for friendship and if it leads to more than that, then I'm fine with it.
All I do is stay at home and do nothing. I'm not interested in going to clubs or bars. I just don't know what to with myself. I'm not depressed, but it seems like it sometimes because life is just passing me by. I always thought that once I had money to go do stuff with that life would be so much better. Well I'm making money and I have nothing to do. Does anyone have any advice?
