Lately I have been feeling very incompetent and discouraged when it comes to nursing. Im starting to wonder if I chose the right career. Although I like nursing I hate the politics that come with it. What is beating me down the most is that I cant seem to get into a hospital for the life of me. I have been on more than a dozen interviews, and even had not one but 2 job offers only to be swept out from under my feet a week or so before I am to start. I know plenty of girls in my area who only have their ASN and got into various hospitals no problem, but I am having absolutely no luck.
This all being the case I have been working at a LTC rehab hall that I am really starting to loathe. I have been getting 2 to 3 admissions a day, and I am lucky if I get an aide. The aides talk about me and how I am so mean and lazy, but I just dont think they get the stress Im under. I may look lazy to them sitting at a desk with 2 admissions Im working on, while I let a call light go off until they are done with another resident.
My facility is so greatly understaffed its unreal. People are leaving left and right.
I feel I am stuck here especially since it is ny first real job as a RN and I hate to leave after 4 or 5 months and be a "job hopper" because I am not. I just really wish a hospital would give me a chance.
Im scared to apply because I have no real managment references that I can trust, as I think my DON lied about me and screwed me out of my dream job to keep me at their facility because they are so understaffed and I actually show up and do my job.
I just feeling so beat down and Im wearing thin at this job I am beginning to resent my nursing career choice. I feel Im never going to get that hospital dream job I desire so badly especially if I cant trust any management to give me a good reference.
Sorry I just really need to vent, because Im not sure how much more I can take.
Lately I have been feeling very incompetent and discouraged when it comes to nursing. Im starting to wonder if I chose the right career. Although I like nursing I hate the politics that come with it. What is beating me down the most is that I cant seem to get into a hospital for the life of me. I have been on more than a dozen interviews, and even had not one but 2 job offers only to be swept out from under my feet a week or so before I am to start. I know plenty of girls in my area who only have their ASN and got into various hospitals no problem, but I am having absolutely no luck.
This all being the case I have been working at a LTC rehab hall that I am really starting to loathe. I have been getting 2 to 3 admissions a day, and I am lucky if I get an aide. The aides talk about me and how I am so mean and lazy, but I just dont think they get the stress Im under. I may look lazy to them sitting at a desk with 2 admissions Im working on, while I let a call light go off until they are done with another resident.
My facility is so greatly understaffed its unreal. People are leaving left and right.
I feel I am stuck here especially since it is ny first real job as a RN and I hate to leave after 4 or 5 months and be a "job hopper" because I am not. I just really wish a hospital would give me a chance.
Im scared to apply because I have no real managment references that I can trust, as I think my DON lied about me and screwed me out of my dream job to keep me at their facility because they are so understaffed and I actually show up and do my job.
I just feeling so beat down and Im wearing thin at this job I am beginning to resent my nursing career choice. I feel Im never going to get that hospital dream job I desire so badly especially if I cant trust any management to give me a good reference.
Sorry I just really need to vent, because Im not sure how much more I can take.