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Hi All,
So today has probably been one of the worst days I've had. I woke up to a message regarding my NCLEX exam I took 2 days ago. My heart sank immediately into my stomach the moment I read the message. I got my report for the NCLEX which ended at 79 questions and it broke down the different areas I was "right below the line", "above the line", and "far below the line".
So as for preparation, I graduated in May and took the exam July 14th. I really thought I was prepared after using KAPLAN for the past 2 months. I was scoring in the 50s and got 60s a few times along with a few 40s in the beginning. These were lower than the goal but I was continuously told the scores dont really matter as long as I remediated which is exactly what I did. I filled up maybe 2 full notebooks in preparation for this.
Now on test day, I dont know why but I felt really unprepared and I was guilty of studying the day before and early the day of the exam. I just lost my confidence and I feel as though I blanked out on all the questions during the exam. Well it took me 2 hours to get through 75 questions and when it turned off at 79, I really thought I failed. Of course all my friends explained to me and reassured to me the low chances of failing around 75 which did make me feel better. But even at that, I those 2 days were the longest 48 hours of my life. I avoided the PVT trick just because I thought it would stress me out more than I needed.
Well now today, I got the message and I really just broke down. I thought about my future and my job which I had lined up. I immediately called my hiring manager and we spoke about it. No my start date has been pushed 2 months back which I am still grateful she did not take away the offer. Next, I talked to kaplan to get the refund back and plan on signing up on pearsonvue for the next nclex date which has to be 45 days from now. I have access to kaplan still along with access to UWORLD. I plan on using UWORLD because I really enjoyed the rationales on that more than KAPLAN but I thought because I paid the $400 for it, I was obligated to use it and I heard all the great stories about it. This is in no way of bashing on KAPLAN or anything but I just felt like it was not right for me.
I apologize for the length of the post, I ended up just venting but my question to all you is if you have any advice on what I should do now? I want to start right back up but 45 days is a long time and I feel as though I'm lost and in a limbo. I feel like I am lost and I dont know how to restart myself. I feel overwhelmed and I know many others have been in the situation as me. SO is there anything specific you guys think I should do to change this outcome again? All advice/criticisms are welcome!