I'm so sad. So very sad.
I've been diagnosed with Addison's Disease and I'm starting to doubt my ability to finish my nursing program. I'm tired. I'm anxious. I'm weak. I'm nauseous. I'm running on 4 hours of sleep a night, thanks to insomnia. And I'm seriously dreading 12 hours of clinicals. I also have this crazy startle reflex right now every time something minor happens - it's like an electrical volt running through my body, and I then I get weak and dizzy...and blah.
I've only been back at it for a week and I feel like road kill! I'm on edge and panicky and definitely not the most pleasant person to be around, and I'm not entirely sure I can last. Then when I'm done, I know I can't work nights, and I'm unsure that I can even pull off 12 hour shifts, judging by my reaction to one 12 hour clinical a week.
I feel like dropping out right now is a bit premature (I'm nowhere near failing) but at the same time, I don't know if I can run my body down the same way I did last year. I don't know if it's worth it. I haven't even brought it up to my instructors - don't know why, except I don't really know what I'm asking for.
I just hate the idea of all the work and struggle being for squat. And I feel like my body has completely betrayed me.
And I guess I just needed to vent.
Life can be really unfair sometimes!!!