Dear Nurse Beth,
I am 26 years old and have wanted to be a nurse since I was at least 10 years old. I always pictured myself caring for and nurturing sick people back to health. I finished my RN in May of 2016 and will soon be finishing my BSN. I started as a CNA then LPN in a nursing home then moved to a critical access hospital as an RN and recently moved to the regional hospital on the cardiac step-down unit.
I am struggling. I feel myself quickly falling out of love with the profession and I can see my dream dying. My best is never enough. The next shift always wants something more, doctors are disrespectful, patients are rude and demanding constantly, all the while more and more work and charting expectations are being pushed on us each day. I am disappointed to think I will soon have a degree in a skill that I no longer feel passionately about. And I am devastated by the thought of leaving the only thing I have ever wanted to do.
Sometimes I think that maybe I am just working in a bad hospital (it is magnet status but still doesn't take very good care of staff) or maybe it is just the population in the area. I still have hope of things getting better and don't want to leave floor nursing yet. Is this what nursing has become everywhere? How do I find the right fit for me? If I'm in a bad hospital, how do I find a good one? If I'm burned out this early in my career should I be doing something else? What else could I do with my BSN?
Dear Devastated and Disappointed,
It sounds like nursing is not what you thought it'd be. And it's almost impossible to know what nursing really entails until you practice as a nurse. Many of us are drawn to the nurturing, caring aspect and it's a shock to realize nursing is a often series of urgent tasks with little time for reflection in between.
Those who stick it out reconcile their values with the reality of the working world. They recognize the good they are doing by applying their assessment skills, and how you can comfort a patient with a quick word or touch or even eye contact. They see the bad, but also the good that is there, every day, every shift.
Those who are unable to reconcile the two value systems suffer from the conflict. This is where you are at. If you choose to leave bedside clinical practice, you don't have to leave nursing altogether.
You have your BSN, and good experience. You can qualify for many other positions where you could use your BSN and still help people, but practice away from the floor.
Read Fleeing the Bedside for other job options.
Best wishes,
Nurse Beth
Author, "Your Last Nursing Class: How to Land Your First Nursing Job"...and your next!