Depressed, unhappy, feeling lost

[stacylethani, BSN]

I want to preface this by saying, this is a rough time in life for everyone. I have yet to meet someone who isn't struggling.

I'm feeling so anxious, overwhelmed, and depressed. I never feel like doing anything anymore on my days off d/t quarantine. My state was one of the harder hit ones, and we've been on a very strict stay at home order for multiple months now. I've been baking a lot and that's basically been my newest hobby but late at night, when I'm lying in bed alone I just feel so unhappy/miserable. Many of my friends are also struggling with anxiety/feelings of frustration and sometimes it feels like we are walking on eggshells around each other. I feel like I can't talk to them about it sometimes because they're struggling so much with it too that its just too stressful for them to talk about it and they just end up getting more anxious and angry.

Everything feels kind of meaningless right now. I'm so tired. All the time. I mean, I work night shift so I'm already always tired but this just feels worse. I just want to sleep all the time. Things that used to make me happy before, don't. I feel like I'm just going through the motions of everything in my boring, unexciting, lonely life right now. I've been reading here and there and the weather is finally warming up so I've been trying to get outside more. I live with my family and its constant covid talk - the news is always on and even when I've asked them to stop watching it so much because it just creates anxiety in everyone plus its only so reliable, they won't.

I don't know what this post is about, really. I'm just feeling really lonely and really down. It's my birthday soon and I honestly couldn't care less.

[Marisette, BSN, RN]

I had to turn off the TV and visit allnurses today. The news is very depressing. And Yes, it's all covid. This little virus has turned the world upside down and everyone is affected weather it be loss of job, loss of loved ones, fear of getting disease at home or the workplace, financial problems...

I think I know what your post is about. It's the feeling of sadness for all that was lost and the feeling that we don't know how all this will end. Hang in there. You are not alone.

[MarkMyWords]

I feel like you and I am not a health worker. I live alone and stay home almost all the time--boring I felt that the media people were scaring us, intentionally--with good meaning reasons...and also to raise their ratings. The red image of the coronavirus is itself scary on purpose. At least you are productive baking. So many people have nothing to do...they are into trivia. and TV.

[barcode120x, RN, NP]

I miss the days when I would walk past patient rooms with the TV's blasting insane sports games (football, baseball, bball, etc) and hearing patients cheering and/or cussing. Now, it's all silent, closed doors. At least the chatter at the nurses station has spiked up a bit now that doors are closed and our voices aren't a nuisance to the patients because the doors are closed.

[amoLucia]

Your behaviors are very similar to those of us who are NOT working. We're all affected by this C19.

TV news upsets me, so I watch little. I am already shut in and have been for years, so the isolation is a bit more tolerable for me. But I do have concerns re the few folk I have physical home contact with.

On ‎5‎/‎21‎/‎2020 at 9:44 PM, Marisette said:

I think I know what your post is about. It's the feeling of sadness for all that was lost and the feeling that we don't know how all this will end. Hang in there. You are not alone.

We're all there with you. TY for your working service, it is recognized and appreciated by many of us.

[speedynurse, ADN, BSN, RN, EMT-P]

I am an ER nurse so still have a job too. But I agree that it’s largely affecting everyone to some degree. I don’t watch the news and have to walk away at work sometimes when the covid talk goes on because I can only handle it in bits and pieces.