Depressed Readmit Senior Student - Shouldn't I be happy?

[Tooimpatient]

I'll try to make this short....I'm in an ADN program, failed my 4th semester last year (out of 5). I had a nice long break (8 months to be exact) waiting for 4th semester to come around again so I could be readmitted. I just started back 2 weeks ago.

I made a 90 on our first test yesterday so not struggling so far grades-wise...but the problem is so far I'm handling everything like a freshman again. Actually WORSE than I ever was as a freshman. I am constantly stressed to the MAX - to the point of being almost in tears most days, I'm finding myself being moody and irritable, depressed....mainly depressed...I have NEVER been this way in my life, not even the first time around in nursing school. It's just hard to have your life back for 8 months and go back into nursing school...bc we all know you don't have much of a life at all as a nursing student.

Anybody else been a readmit student and felt this way? Maybe it'll pass after I get the hang of things again. I'm a wreck at clinicals (and I have THE hardest instructor that we have on our campus)...I feel like I've forgotten some stuff. I find myself strongly questioning if I even want to be a nurse and finish my degree...I know I definitely don't want to work in a hospital. I'm so close to finishing (about 7-8 months away) that it would be stupid not to. I guess I just need somebody to vent to who can relate. Maybe some inspiration that things will get better?

[Candimk2]

I don't think it's worth making yourself sick over. If you don't love it you won't stuck with it, BUT if you do, just remember there are so many different doors this degree can open for you. You've already said you don't want to work in a hospital, but there are so many other things you can do with this degree. So if you truly love nursing I say stick with it, but if you don't then I say stop making yourself miserable. Get out now & explore your options.

[Tooimpatient]

Well, just to update...The despair and doom has subsided...lol. I think I was overwhelmed but I've calmed myself down, worked on being much more organized and I have a set study schedule again. Things are starting to come together and I'm feeling much better. So if anyone reads my post and can relate, maybe it will give some encouragement to know things can turn around. :cheers: