Confused with continuing nursing

Hi all, I am a first semester student, and I am struggling on keeping up with Med-Surg clinicals due to lack of critical thinking skills that made my CI ask  me, "do you really wanted to be a nurse?"

Since then, I have been crying almost every week and trying to hang on the rollercoaster. I know myself that I'm striving and trying my best to learn and improve. Whatever happens I'll have Jesus take the wheel for me because I have been emotionally drained since the second half of the semester. 

I just want some advices on how to go on because I am now at the point of giving up and change careers even though it is not bad to reapply again when I fail. I am just scared. 

35 minutes ago, LostFutureRN said:

Hi all, I am a first semester student, and I am struggling on keeping up with Med-Surg clinicals due to lack of critical thinking skills that made my CI ask  me, "do you really wanted to be a nurse?"

Can you give some examples of your "lack of critical thinking" that compelled your instructor to say such a thing?

Not trying to be nosy but it will be difficult to try to help without some idea of where your instructor is coming from.

And what is your judgment of the situation? Are you truly not getting things the way your peers are, or is there more to this story?

Thanks.

You do sound distressed and for that I am sorry. It really is impossible to answer your question without more details. What happened that made your instructor ask you that? Are you having issues staying off your phone, socializing too much, being indifferent to the patients, avoiding doing the work? Those are the things that, as an educator, would make me question why you are there. Can you give us more insight?