I've been working at my facility for almost two months. They moved a resident from the assistant living side of our facility to the memory care unit where I work. I fell in love with the resident they moved in. I wasn't sure I was going to be able to help her since I'm still new and she had a hard time communicating. But once I started to work with her she found a place in my heart. Then last week (April 17th) I found out that she fell and shattered her hip. My heart fell into pieces. She was at a high fall risk since she wasn't fully coherent and was wheelchair bound. I hate the other CNAs I worked with because they didn't do her hourly checks (it's bolded "safety checks 2q hours" on her resident chart.) and they didn't care about her the way I did. I was constantly in there. Before she fell she seemed to be declining. She wasn't eating anything and barely had any water. So I made sure she always had an ensure and water. I toiletted her prn. I did everything I could in my power to make sure that resident had the time of her life. I even visited her when I wasn't working. She passed away yesturday at 7:15 pm. Friday night I thought she had passed away in my arms because I was doing her unconscious oral care. She had cheyne stokes so I told the med techs, said my goodbyes and left. That was the last time I ever got to see her. I love that woman more than life and it's completely tearing me apart. I keeping it inside because a lot of people aren't empathetic or sympathetic when it comes to losing someone you barely know. I was with her for only a couple weeks but that woman left a huge imprint on my heart. I even befriended her hospice nurse and family. I can't cry at work and when I'm home it doesn't come out. Her funeral is in another state and just for family which breaks my heart even more.
I honestly don't know what to do. I don't want to go back into depression again.. But I feel it may happen.
It's different in every state. I couldn't take this class until I was a junior at my high school. Everyone's getting uspet because I'm a teenager on a forum for my career profession and putting my own opinion out there.
You are young. You are NOT yet a young adult, you are a teen. Observe. Learn. Grow.
This.
You say you "hate" your co-workers. You might dislike them or the things they do, but ultimately you are all on the same team. There are plenty of my coworkers that I don't particularly care for, yet we work together and we do our jobs. I'm guessing you are getting the cold shoulder at work because of the attitude you put out there. You seem to think you are better than your co-workers (as evidenced by your statements) and that you are the only one that cares. I'm sure your co-workers have picked up on the attitude and are treating you accordingly. Finally, you state that you don't even get a thank you from your co-workers. Thank yous are nice, but ultimately your check is your thank you. I try to thank my co-workers at the end of each shift, particularly if it's been a wild one, but sometimes I'm too busy doing patient care to do so. That's life.
You continue to make claims of abuse, yet you state those people are still working at your facility. If there is truly abuse going on and it's been reported, I highly doubt those people would still have jobs. Be careful when making accusations.
It's not up to you if people keep their jobs or not, that's your DON/Administrator's job. Again you state you have only worked there a short period of time. I'll reiterate this, you haven't worked there long enough to truly know how things operate there. You might think a CNA or Nurse is "crappy" but you most likely do not have all of the information you need to make that judgement.
Finally you state you're ok with the resident's passing, but your initial post shows the opposite. (I love that woman more than life and it's completely tearing me apart. That is not the statement of someone that is "ok" with things). You crossed several boundaries in your care and treatment of the resident. There is nothing wrong with being somewhat attached, but when you stated that you came to see her on your days off, that you spent extra time in her room (you said "constantly"), and that you thought she "died in your arms", that threw up multiple red flags to me. As I said, you cannot remain objective when you are that attached. (And who was doing your work while you were giving the extra attention to this resident?) The harsh reality is that residents die, we all do. It sucks and it can be hard, but that's part of working in health care.
No one is upset that you are a teenager on this forum. I don't think anyone is upset, period. You started a topic, people are responding.
Wait, you're NOTa CNA yet? Your user name/title says you are. What exactly does your boss want to promote you to?
I do a great job at what I do. And I can be a CNA and will be a CNA. I am totally okay about her passing. It's understandable that you may think that. But my boss wants to promote me and raise my pay and I haven't even been there for 4 months yet. And the other CNAs there have been there for a while
and haven't been promoted or naything, I wonder why. Oh, because they abuse the residents there and don't treat them with the least amount of respect. I hate my coworkers because they don't treat me or help me out when I need it. And they like to start a lot of HighSchool drama in a professional setting. Some of my coworkers I love to death and wish them the best, but others like the one I was talking about needs to be revoked from her job. I do my best to keep professional and have helped even the crappiest of CNAs, nurses, and other healthcare employees even if I don't get the least of a thank you. Working with these people have changed my outlook on life. I used to hate everyone and hated life, but working with geriatrics I have been taught so much. Yet again, I'm a 17 year old junior in high school and have no knowledge about the world as you all-mighty-wise nurses do. I appreciate you putting your opinion out there though.
Most states do not license CNA 's. Your coworker probably does not have a license to be "expelled"?
Missingyou, thank you for your kind words and trying to help me out. A lot of people on here aren't aware of me being a VERY young adult and I'm only a month and a half into CNA work/experience. And my instructor/teacher told me that you just kind of have to learn to deal with it and see what your boundaries are. I did report it to my boss (I have text messages as proof.) but that CNA is still there. Her sister used to work in our facility too but she was fired for physically abusing our residents and taking pictures of our residents and putting it on social media ( big, big NO-NO) so I see where the abuse is going. She says she's quitting anyway but she should have her CNA license expelled. My heart hurt so bad to see her do that to our resident. She can't help it, her brain is basically dead and she's mostly incontinent. Nothing has been done yet so I don't know where to go.
Wait, you're NOTa CNA yet? Your user name/title says you are. What exactly does your boss want to promote you to?
I wondered that too. Actually when she called out her CNA co-workers for "not getting promoted" I wondered what they were supposed to be promoted to. At our facility the highest a CNA can be is a CNA.
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It's different in every state. I couldn't take this class until I was a junior at my high school. Everyone's getting uspet because I'm a teenager on a forum for my career profession and putting my own opinion out there.