When coming up with an idea for me to do for our team eventually that would benefit us, if timing was allowed I approached to our exec. Direct. They jumped on the idea and that day made a phone call and with a reply in an email thought it was great and would go forward now with it.
That was unexpected.
The next day I get an email from a asst clinic direct (our teams ACD was on vacay) and she stated it was a bad idea and will talk with exect direct that it won't happen.
Then the next day I was asked to meet with the exec direct and the other teams ACD. In the meeting the exect director stated that she made a decision too fast about the idea I had and is disappointed how it was approached. From there I was told I'm bringing our team down ( I put 150^ when working, we take care of pts that are passing and families). Then that I put community events first over pt care...the most I've done was stop in 1 time for 5mins in between pts...never ever anything else. I take too long at visits and can't time manage. I am spaced out all over, some pts are 1hr and 20mins away and to see 2 of them totals to 4 hrs (one hr visit if pt doesn't have chgs or until controlled restlessness) and the hour drive time. I've asked for help before and now am told I am to never again ask for help nor get help. My case load is too low and other nurses have many more pt, yes and those nurses are in one place- a facility.
The one question that was asked which I think is illegal but maybe not
Is if I was on any medication and if so am I taking it?
I do not understand how this can even be asked. No behavior problems nor complaints on me...as of yesterday I have resigned my case managing position and doing prn while looking elsewhere.
I can no longer do this with now trying to cut short my visits when actually families have nursing related questions or pt needs more care. When getting home I am up till midnight doing paperwork and barely get to see my family.
Any advice?
I also am the only nurse on staff that does the pediatric pts hospice too, no drive time taken in consideration at all and the baby is a 2 1/2 month old and family is different culturally and language barrier. Plus numerous phone calls nightly/ wkend if that pt needs a visit. Told no claiming the time if called. So being that available, like last wkend at a movie with family and got called twice, I didn't answer. She that nurse called our clinical director and she called me to instruct me to call that nurse.
Either you are exhibiting signs and symptoms of something that may be amiss, according to your employer...
It happens though, although not that blatant, where the employer will have a discussion when one is not doing well to their expectations and will ask questions.
Since you went PRN and are looking for another job, be sure to make sure you are taking care of yourself as well.
Here's a part left out, with the idea I had for a future time, the exect director took it and ran with it, this was as just an idea. Then when in the discussion she is the one that said she acted on it too fast and then pointed a finger at me as it was the way I came up with it...basically without further discussion she made the decision to go forth and when asked about the events she stated I've done...she couldn't tell me.
Here's a part left out, with the idea I had for a future time, the exect director took it and ran with it, this was as just an idea. Then when in the discussion she is the one that said she acted on it too fast and then pointed a finger at me as it was the way I came up with it...basically without further discussion she made the decision to go forth and when asked about the events she stated I've done...she couldn't tell me.
My response doesn't change; you still may be exhibiting signs and symptoms; step back and take care of yourself FIRST.
Specializes in LTC, assisted living, med-surg, psych.
I know from my own experience that when I'm unwell, I tend to lack insight into what's happening around me and I am shocked when I get blowback. I wonder if this isn't what's happening here. You do sound a little pressured.....maybe it's time for a "gut check"?
I still say that your medical history/meds etc. are off-limits for an employer to ask about. But it could be that they're seeing something that you're not. Please take care of your health, no matter what happens with this job.
Merged two threads so all your advice will be in one thread.
as others have stated, you come across here as someone that really needs to ficus in getting themselves healthy FIRST before you can reach out to others.
please talk with your healthcare provider. You work issues might be related to your health issues.
Please get treated for your bipolar first. When someone goes through a manic episode they do not realize how they come off to other people. They always think they come up with fantastic, creative ideas, that don't make a whole lot of sense to other people. I bet you were full of enthusiasm and probably got some people to jump on board with your idea due to your enthusiasm. The thing is as it usually does, it has backfired on you. Someone not close to you can see through it. It's hard because I know what is in your mind and it's not real. Please go and take your meds. You will actually then be able to see this situation for what it really is.
I've been bumped up dosage with the Lamicital, and as far as that "great rush of everything" at the same time that comes with bipolar..a baby dose of Xanax.
Specializes in LTC, assisted living, med-surg, psych.
I've been bumped up dosage with the Lamicital, and as far as that "great rush of everything" at the same time that comes with bipolar..a baby dose of Xanax.
I've never ever ever ever not taken my meds
This is good that you're taking your meds. But sometimes one needs a little more, or a different drug, or a short stint on an anti-psychotic. If you've only talked to your doctor by phone, you may want to consider going in so he or she can evaluate you in person. I know there have been times when I was so inarticulate that I had to have an emergency appointment.
You don't sound like you're there yet, but you don't want to be either. As you know, bipolar can turn on a dime and even though your Lamictal has been increased, it may not be enough to knock down a brewing manic episode. Please take care of yourself, and keep us posted. (((HUGS)))
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No one knows about my health history.