I am excited, but a bit overwhelmed and scared after my first week! I was thinking last night that it's kind of like postpartum depression/baby blues that I am experiencing right now. Let me explain.....You work so hard to get your baby here safely and you want to hold your baby so bad, meet them, etc--then you finally have the baby and all these crazy feelings sort of take over. How can I really be a mother? Seriously, I thought I was capable enough to be a Mother? Am I ready for this? *** have I done!!?? Is this really what I want? Am I good enough? What if I am not? What if I fail miserably? But change it all to working towards getting into nursing school and finally getting here--and all those feelings are the same except change the "baby" thoughts to nursing school. Making any sense?
Just my crazy thought process. Of course, you want your baby, and are just feeling overwhelmed with the reality of actually being a mother rather than just "thinking" about it when your are a pregnant--huge difference.
Everything works out once you get into the swing of things, get your routine down and start to feel a little confident in your skills.
I know it will be OK once I get settled in (is that possible?) but I was wondering if anyone felt this way too? I love my professors, classes, etc....I am just feeling overwhelmed and scared! I hate that feeling--as I want this so bad and I've worked SO HARD to get here!! I am supposed to be feeling super excited, elated, and on cloud nine to finally be here! Then I feel guilty for not feeling that and feeling scared and oh so not confident in myself.
This is how I am feeling. That my brand spanking new scrubs and spotless, white athletic shoes will scream out "clueless wannabe" as I walk into my clinicals location. :redbeathe
Ha ha thanks for the laughs everyone. Tyring to finish assigned reading, enjoying last weekend of no chaos, spending time with my family and waiting for Irene. I'm overwhelmed but honestly school is not my priority this weekend. I did wash my scrubs several times, but I still have the sparkly white shoes.
I am in the same boat as everyone else, and it is like childbirth. In 2 years or so we'll look back and say "that wasn't too bad" but now- I'm second-guessing the decision big time. I feel like if every week is like this it will be impossible. But I know I just have to readjust and things will fall into place. Congrats to you all on getting in and good luck with school!!
I feel the same way too, I start next week, but my family and co-workers are putting such high expectations on me. " Oh you're so smart, you've been a CNA forever, fundamentals will be a breeze for you!" I know the material is not difficult, it is the testing, plus I will still be full time at work on top of class and clinical 5 days a week. Thankfully they aren't expecting as much from the other semesters, "they" the family and co-workers, who are all RN's or NP's say it will be more difficult. Well thanks for letting me have the chance to lower the bar. Not that I will, but it is different to dissapoint yourself than it is to have someone else disapointed in you...Wow I'm glad I could get that off my chest I feel better now! Thanks for starting this thread.:redbeathe
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Ha ha thanks for the laughs everyone. Tyring to finish assigned reading, enjoying last weekend of no chaos, spending time with my family and waiting for Irene. I'm overwhelmed but honestly school is not my priority this weekend. I did wash my scrubs several times, but I still have the sparkly white shoes.