Another step forward

[Twoyearnurse]

Good afternoon all! I completed my interview with the board investigator. He said I have two options: surrender my lisence for a year or go before the board. After giving me the options he suggested going before the board because it was his opinion that I have a good grasp on recovery. He said his recommendation to the board would be for a yea suspension with six months stayed with an MOA. I said I wanted to go before the board after he explained that if it came down to the board determining I should be revoked I could at that time offer to surrender. He further stated that usually when he gets to the investigation the nurse is usually still in their downward spiral, and it was nice to meet a nurse who appeared to be moving forward and up. When asked what my goals were in regards to my lisence i stated that I want to retain my lisence because I love being a nurse but that this is secondary to my sobriety. He asked why I chose to be honest I stated that my sobriety demands vigorous honesty. I truly believe things will work out how they are supposed to, I know my program is strong because I am unconcerned with my lisence at this point, I am, however, very concerned with my wellness end recovery. Keep sending good thoughts and prayers my way!

[Oogie]

Good for you! Be strong in your program, go before the board. You worked hard for that license, it's worth fighting for, You are worth fighting for (intwined on in the same). I admire your integrity to persevere. What we choose to do today defines who we are, not the mistakes of our past. My heart is with you, Never give up, Never Surrender. Peace

[michelecrna]

It's difficult to think about not working in your profession for any period of time, but you are SO right; recovery is first. I am a CRNA in recovery and will soon be able to go back to work in my professsion that I love so much. I am 16 1/2 months clean and sober!! The key to recovery is a very strong program; you cannot return without that. Learning to ask for help has been a key for me; it is a very difficult thing to do. We, in the medical field, are so used to helping others, not ourselves. We MUST take care of ourselves first and foremost. Good luck to you.

[Twoyearnurse]

Congratulations Michele! It is not easy being clean! I will tell you that AA has ruined drinking and using for me! It has ruined any chance or me believing that alcohol or drugs will help me (what a shame right??). I remember first walking in those rooms and thinking "there is no way anyone is this happy sober, there is no way!", but now slowly but surely this once cold and broken person is waning up again and becoming whole, happy, and healthy! Some days I can't even believe how happy I am. I have a twin brother who is an"dry drunk" meaning he doesn't work a program but remains sober. I can not believe sometimes how his world appears so chaotic (often only to his own mind and when he expresses it to me). He is a man who makes more than I could ever hope to as a nurse, has his own place, and obviously has the same loving family as me, yet here I sit calm (most of the time) without a lisence, life in "ruins", and my world feels beautifully centered. It's crazy!

[amygarside]

Good for you. Stay strong.

[newmommy26]

Twoyear you inspire me and you are so strong in your program. keep fighting