All I do is cry

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I'm still awaiting evaluation and I feel useless in the meantime..no job. It all feels hopeless. All I do is cry. I'm nervous and scared. Anyone feel this way?

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Specializes in ER, ICU/CCU, Open Heart OR Recovery, Etc.

Indeed, welcome. There are a lot of good people here. This site has been a lifesaver and helped me out a great deal when I was in monitoring.

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I too am new to this forum and it has a great deal of good information. I am in PA. I completed inpatient treatment (8 weeks) in a professionals program, about 2 weeks ago. Since it was so long I don't have to do IOP but I have to:

*attend group therapy 1x a week

*see 1:1 therapist every other week

*see psychiatrist at least once every 3 months

*attend 3 12 step meetings per week

*attend caduceus meeting once per week

*attend a meeting for professionals in a monitoring program once a month

*submit to random drug screens

*abide by work restrictions - currently have not been approved to return to work in any capacity

It is a lot but if this is what I have to do I must accept that. I am fortunate that they are not kicking me out of the profession alltogether. Hope to hear more about your journey.

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Specializes in Psych ICU, addictions.
This is the forum I absolutely need to be on. I am new to this site, how do I save this forum so I can come back to it and check in with all of you guys again?

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Hi all. I'm in Florida and am preparing to self report my incident to IPN tomorrow. My employer believes in the healing of nurses and has assisted many nurses before through this situation so I have been incredibly blessed. I have not been terminated, yet was offered a leave of absence with 12 weeks of FMLA for a "medical problem", provided I self report to IPN. My employer has informed me they will not report me to the BON as I made my admission of guilt upon interview and agreed to self report to IPN. Once I report, is evaluation the first step? I was told I can return to work as soon as my initial process is completed with IPN and am cleared by them to work. They said they have had nurses return to work in as little as 8 weeks under monitoring guidelines. I guess my situation is minimal in comparison to some and my employer said that is beneficial as I'm at an early stage where I can truly benefit from this experience with minimal effect. If anyone could help me to understand what to expect in the beginning of the process that would be greatly appreciated. I don't think the shock of the situation has worn off yet but I have cried for about 8 hours now, and wondering how I ever let myself get here. But I know that's a natural part of this process and we all ask ourselves that same question. Thanks everyone, your honestly and welcoming community are going to be a huge help for me through this process.

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Hi all. I'm in Florida and am preparing to self report my incident to IPN tomorrow. My employer believes in the healing of nurses and has assisted many nurses before through this situation so I have been incredibly blessed. I have not been terminated, yet was offered a leave of absence with 12 weeks of FMLA for a "medical problem", provided I self report to IPN. My employer has informed me they will not report me to the BON as I made my admission of guilt upon interview and agreed to self report to IPN. Once I report, is evaluation the first step? I was told I can return to work as soon as my initial process is completed with IPN and am cleared by them to work. They said they have had nurses return to work in as little as 8 weeks under monitoring guidelines. I guess my situation is minimal in comparison to some and my employer said that is beneficial as I'm at an early stage where I can truly benefit from this experience with minimal effect. If anyone could help me to understand what to expect in the beginning of the process that would be greatly appreciated. I don't think the shock of the situation has worn off yet but I have cried for about 8 hours now, and wondering how I ever let myself get here. But I know that's a natural part of this process and we all ask ourselves that same question. Thanks everyone, your honestly and welcoming community are going to be a huge help for me through this process.

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Hi. It's ok to cry. I cried too. It's a process, however, there is a solution and you don't have to live like you have been any more. Try to be patient, and you will get through it. The self reporting is first and the evaluation is second. You will have more information after your evaluation. Be strong.

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