A Nurse's Hands

Nurses General Nursing

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I've been retired for over two years now, but in a rare contemplative moment, here are a few thoughts on what being a nurse meant to me.

Lately I've taken to looking at my hands, which appear to have morphed into my grandmother's in recent years. They are well-worn and the skin is thinning rapidly, much to my dismay. While a layer of fat fills in the lines in my face, the same thing can't be said for my hands, which tell my life story without words.

And then I remember: these hands have held new life, and comforted the dying.

These hands have given the first bath...and the last.

They have been washed literally hundreds of thousands of times in the service of people I didn't give birth to.

They have administered the first feeding and the last dose of morphine.

They have rubbed sore backs, dressed wounds, smoothed fresh linens over feverish bodies.

They have fed, cleaned, stopped bleeding, performed CPR. They have also prepared the living for surgery, and the dead for their final journey.

They are the hands of a nurse. And even though my career is over, my hands will forever bear the marks of the noble work they once did.

And somehow, that makes the wrinkles OK.

Specializes in Pediatrics, Emergency, Trauma.

I am off from work for a few days and rubbing emollients on them...the work I have done this week makes these dry hands wonder at what I do-your post certainly gave me a reminder! :D

What a truly beautiful testament to an honorable and dedicated life's work. Thank you for sharing it with us.

Specializes in Med-Surg, Developmental Disorders.

A young adult unit in an LTC? And not locked down? Wow! That makes me think of a horrible for profit nursing home where I had my first job as a weekend treatment nurse. For whatever reason, TPTB accepted a 20-something woman straight from a real psych ward where she had been for help with drug addiction. I was not there on her first night, but I heard all about it. Apparently, she took off all her clothes and ran down the hall, screaming. The nurse medicated her and she settled down, and her mother ended up visiting and stayed with her for the duration of her short stay, so that was something; she was calmer when her mom was with her, or maybe it was the meds. We had no psych unit, we were never a psych facility. We didn't even have so much as an Alzheimer's/Memory Care Unit, locked or otherwise. Most of us never even got an orientation, much less extra training in psych. I would wonder why she wasn't sent to the hospital on her first night. Now I'm more cynical and realize that the hospitals in the neighborhood would probably just send her right back. And what made this family choose our facility in the first place, even if it was only for like a week? Did they leave AMA? Why was nobody at the previous facility helping them make a more appropriate discharge plan? Or was our facility the plan??? Never did figure that out, and I quit for a much better facility shortly thereafter.

Still, I would love one day to work at a mental health facility/unit where psych is done right. It can be so dangerous if it is mismanaged, more dangerous in some ways than other types of nursing, so it's important to me to find a good place for it. I know it is not easy. But I know it will be worth it. Always good to hear from you!

Specializes in ER, Cardiology, and GYN long ago.

So beautifully expressed. I too, have looked at my hands and frowned at the wrinkles and thin skin. Not anymore, now I shall look at them with renewed admiration for they have done the same as yours. Thank you for sharing!

Specializes in Oncology (OCN).

Beautiful!

I too had to retire much too early in my career for medical reasons. I often wonder if I'll ever get the privilege of returning to nursing.

Thank you for sharing!

Your hands carry the stories of many blessed people.

Thanks for this reflective piece!

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