I will be a first year Nursing student Starting Sept. 3. So how come I have this big lump in my throat and tears welling in my eyes? I have a 3 year old and a 17 month old. They've never been in a dayhome in their lives.
I was committed to being a stay at home mom until the opportunity came up in the small town that I live in to take my nursing program locally. This is a pilot project. So I didn't want to risk missing this opportunity, I upgraded a course I needed and was accepted. Then my husband was also accepted into an MBNA program. I was mad yet happy for him because very few people are accepted into this program and he is very young (27) compared to the others in his class.
Yet I am so sad. I don't want to leave my kids!!! Maybe I'm just scared. I listened to DR.Laura's radio program (Even though I hate her moral pushing, unaccepting views) and a caller in the same situation as me phoned in. Dr. Laura told her that she was being selfish. She had her chance to go to school but decided to have kids, now she's going to school to fullfill her own selfish needs.
Yesterday I watched Oprah and Dr. Phyl was on (I do love him!) He said that mothers don't take enough "me" time. That mothers are expected to be mothers and thats it. He said that family and friends have to stop making mothers feel guilty for doing their own thing away from the kids. He said we need to take time for us. I agree, but yet why do I feel like this???? :o
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