Hanging It Up - page 5
by VivaLasViejas Guide | 15,999 Views | 55 Comments
It seems almost unreal: in six days, I will don my scrubs, put my name badge on, and go to work at the nursing home like I have almost every weekend since last July. I will pass meds, listen to hearts and lungs, change a dressing... Read More
- 3Dec 29, '13 by Chrissy LouI am jealous....it seems I have the same thoughts myself. Nursing is not what it used to be. After many years of doing something I once truly loved, I know dream of new avenues, things I can do AWAY from nursing. I am saddened, as I always thought there would be nothing else. But doing more with so much less, knowing that money, not patient care, is the priority, I just don't know that I can go much farther. I was not trained to ever think that spending a few extra minutes consoling a family, a patient, or helping a fellow co-worker with a fall at the change of shifts was wrong. I am tired of being frustrated, feeling guilty because I can't offer snacks or extra lip balm because it is "not in the budget", or not being able to offer coffee to a family while they are keeping vigil at a dying resident's bedside because again, the kitchen is locked tight to safeguard the "budget". I am tired of too many chiefs and not enough Indians. How sad our industry has become. Kudos to you for taking the plunge!! I wish you all the luck in the world!!
- 1Dec 29, '13 by suniI also have been a nurse for 39 years and have recently left the bedside for an educator position. The pay is not as good but my body was starting to tell me that 39 years of lifting, tugging and bending was taking its toll. The staffing issues and all the paperwork now is exhausting as well as the fact that many new grads do not want to work. I worry about health insurance and keeping my position but am hopeful.
Congats to you viva!
- 2Dec 29, '13 by VivaLasViejas, ASN, RN GuideWell, today was the day.....I am now officially retired from clinical nursing. As I passed my meds, performed the usual G-tube rituals and did treatments, I felt a bit wistful because I knew I was doing them for the last time; but honestly, my most prominent emotion is relief.
I should've done this a couple of years ago......and probably before that. Although I didn't know it at the time, I was tapped out long before I made this last ill-fated attempt at floor nursing, which turned out to be a blessing in disguise because it forced me to understand that I really WAS done. As many of you know, I'd toyed with the idea of leaving nursing for some time, but it wasn't until this past summer that it became crystal clear that I had no choice in the matter---it was time for me to go.
And I won't be back. I hope and pray that this new job will be the one I stick with until full retirement age, but even if it's not, I know I'll find something else to do. One of the more amazing things that's happened in the past few months is learning that I can push myself beyond some of my limitations and take risks I was too afraid to take even a short while ago; however, that works only if those risks are calculated, and with help I've come to recognize which are too dangerous to attempt.
Remaining in clinical nursing is one of them. Yesterday I almost committed a serious med error when I got distracted by too much noise and activity in the hall. Yes, every nurse makes mistakes and escapes making many more, but this was another time when only the grace of God and one more quick glance back at the MARs saved both my patient and me from disaster. Needless to say, that scared the daylights out of me---even today, it stilldoes---and only reinforced the conviction that I've done the right thing by leaving before my luck runs out.
It's good that this part of my career is over. I've no doubt that I'll miss it---at least a little---but not enough to return for an encore even if something were to go sideways during my second act.
- 1Dec 29, '13 by LadyFree28Congrats Viva...your career is NOT over, your just using your nursing practice in a MUCH different way...nurse ON my nursing sister!!!
I'm feeling kind of in a silly lighthearted mode...I'm going for a job interview tomorrow, so I'm nervous and excited; still carving out my niche in nursing...even if with a sieve and colander and will shape it in a bowl.
But I digress-enjoy your new semi retirement plan!
- 1Dec 30, '13 by VivaLasViejas, ASN, RN GuideQuote from n'villeThat's great to hear! I've really got a good feeling about this---it's the job I've wanted for years, and I think I'll do well. For the first time ever, I'm more excited than nervous about starting a new position and as the date approaches, the anticipation gets more intense.The "dark side" is not so bad. I left clinical nursing 11 years ago to become a surveyor and have loved every minute of it.