I completely understand what you are going through. I started as a student at a community college. At the time, my husband was deployed to Afghanistan and I began to struggle with everything including school. I'll spare you the details, but suffice it to say our marriage fell apart and it did NOT end well. My gpa went down somewhere around a 2.5 and I had a really hard time sticking with school.
I finally dug myself out of the hole a little bit, finished up a liberal arts associates, and transferred to a state university. My gpa from community college still wasn't quite high enough to apply to Nursing, so I declared a Health Sciences major with a minor in Holistic Health in order to sign up for more College of Nursing courses at my school. I insanely attended classes on both campuses sometimes taking as many as 21 credits so I could raise my gpa at CC and still progress toward my bachelor's. I decided since I was meeting grad requirements to finish up this May I would apply to a Master's Options program for students with prior non-nursing Bachelors degrees. 110 applicants later for 24 slots and my 3.429 gpa was not good enough to compete. Since school is not my favorite pass time, a 3.4 is about as good as it is going to get for me and it felt quite discouraging for it not to be good enough!
Soo, I applied to an accelerated BSN and to the regular BSN at my current school. After having a breif convo with an advisor who is not a very warm person, I felt sick about my application and panicked. I began applying to every community college nursing program whose deadline I had not missed and who did not have a wait list. I took the NLN-PAX exam and scored 88,76,87 percentile on Verbal/Math/Science. Sure enough I did not get into the accelerated BSN I applied to, and I will not find out about the regular BSN until April. On the positive, I was accepted at one of the Community Colleges I applied to!
I've decided I don't need to collect Bachelor's degrees or double the student loan debt to be a good R.N! I'm not sure where you are at as far as your education, or what programs you have applied to, but if you have not applied to an ASN program I say go for it! It can be a long frustrating process to take classes, go through the app process, and not get in, but if you really want to be a nurse, you probably will not be happy until you get there so don't give up! I know many good students who also have struggled to get accepted to Nursing programs
. I live in Maine and the schools here usually have a C or better policy for sciences, but a solid B or better in all sciences helps to get in. Do not despair if you have to retake a course to get a higher grade, I've done it several times. It is not how I would have preferred it, but it is what I had to do to get where I wanted to be. Retaking a course is not ideal, but it does show determination and persistence.
My education, much like this post has dragged on further than I intended. I'm rapidly approaching my 25th Birthday and I always thought I would be completely done having kids before I turned 30.... change of plans! I'm still renting, I have no kids, I'm divorced, and I'm graduating with a Bachelor's degree in Health Sciences that I never really wanted in the first place! Hang in there! Sometimes things work out when we least expect them to. If I were you, I would allot myself a brief period of mourning and then furiously get right back to it applying or maybe reapplying to every program I could. The more places you apply the better your chances of getting in somewhere. Also check around for programs that start in the spring or summer. If you're not accepted for the fall, move on to the very next possible place with the closest start. Many community colleges have rolling admissions as well, so if you applied even after the program filled it is possible for someone to drop out for this fall. Best of luck, keep your chin up, keep at it, and before you know it you'll be taking the NCLEX!