This is one long vent so no one will likely want to actually read it - I don't be offended if no one comments!
I'm really struggling guys. Struggling with Micro (and Psych but that's another issue) and will probably have to retake it, while the atomosphere at my full-time job is getting incredibly stressful and the commute (3 1/2 + hours a day) is getting worse every day. I'm getting perhaps 5 hours sleep a night which is not enough but I still can't seem to find enough time to study like I apparently should. My 10yo is creeping around the house trying not to make a sound because Daddy is telling her Mommy's stressed out. DH is trying to be supportive but is obviously feeling neglected because suddenly he wants more "attention" than normal and of course I'm so stressed that my libido is nill which is just making that issue worse. A lot worse. Add to it the fact that we're planning to leave the area after I'm done with school and the entire plan hinges on getting that RN. I feel like I just want to scream all the time, or just sleep for the rest of my life.
I've never been scared of science before but now I'm freaking at how much of it I have ahead of me. What if I'm a miserable nurse? What if I incur all this student loan debt and I suck and fail out of nursing school
? What if I end up passing the boards but leave my marriage alongside the road to get there? Is this worth it? What happened to doing this for me, when did it become for the entire family? When did our entire future start riding on my academic shoulders??