I started on a pediatric cardiac med surg floor a few weeks ago and I'm feeling so lost and overwhelmed. I feel like 75% of the time, I don't even truly understand the kid's hx/admission reason because they have such weird/complex cardiac diseases and syndromes.
AND, sometimes I barely have time to even comprehend what is wrong with their heart physiologically, because I'm just trying to understand why we are doing the interventions for them that we are and how to do them!
I'm super freaked out that I won't notice signs of deterioration on these kids and that I'll miss something critical. I don't know what to do. I feel so frustrated with myself and so dumb all the time.
Feeling freaked out and overwhelmed is a normal part of starting a new job, a new specialty or a new profession. Believe me, we'd much rather see that than overconfidence in a new colleague. Honestly.
Are you studying at home? Carry a small notebook and jot down things you need to look up, then when you get off work, look them up. I promise you that we old nurses all did that from the start, and we didn't have Google! Good luck.