I have been on orientation for circulator for 2 weeks. Many of my coworkers say I make a good team member and that I fit in well already but I feel like a fish out of water! I am so anxious to be good at what I do that I'm making myself nuts. Everyone keeps saying, "don't be so hard on yourself".
But the problem is, I feel like my orientation would be a lot smoother if they'd have started me in general cases and gyn, then moved me up to the more intricate cases like ortho but instead they just bounce me around every day and I don't know which end is up anymore! My 3rd day, I was in a AAA repair, then the next day I was back in gyn, then the next in ortho. There is no logic to it at all.
wouldn't it make more sense if they let me get a basic grasp of one simpler area before they drop the bomb on me, so to speak? I feel that a consistent orientation with say, a few days in each specialty would greatly benefit me as well as the other staff, since I will be on my own in 3 months and I will be working 3-11, which is a shift at my hospital that a) No one wants, and b) I will be the only circulator on that shift!!!!! I know that my scrub nurse and other seasoned staff will be more than willing to help me when I'm on my own, but I still don't see how I can benefit from this strange, flip floppy orientation!
I want to speak to my managers about this on Monday, but I don't want them to think I know it all or anything. I just feel that they have too many other things going on and they aren't truly paying attention to what room they send me in. A lot of the staff agrees with me!
Anyhow, I do truly love the O.R. but I want to be a good nurse down there, and I don't feel my orientation is fair to me, let alone my other staff members.
Also, were any of you scared to absolute death of contaminating the sterile field? I am! I'm even afraid to "pop" the sterile equipment onto a sterile field. My hands pretty much are shaking when I do it!!
! Will that feeling ever go away? And when will I start to feel a little more confident? It truly is hard to be the new kid on the block, especially since I felt so confident when I was a "floor nurse".
Thanks for listening,