I am still on probation period and it worries me that, because of my personality, they will decide not to keep me when my probation period ends.
I describe my self as an introvert person. I am shy, soft spoken and a very laid back person. I love my job and I enjoy what I do. The charge nurse can even count on me when they need someone to stay for OT. That's who I am.
My skills varies every day :-) When I work with people who are bossy, I become submissive and my brain just stops working. I turn into a robot. I do not think at all, I just wait for their commands. Which at the end of the day, makes me feel like crap and think that I did so horrible today. On those days that I worked with people who do not see me as a rookie, I become more independent and very efficient. I feel very proud and I go home HAPPY.
Also, changing into another service after being in one service for 3 weeks, makes me feel like I am back to zero again.
Has any of you felt this on your 2nd month in the OR?