It is hard to deal with psyche patients, i understand. Psyche is not my strong suite, either. I also work to maintain compassion for some patients, i hope i, in no way, came off as righteous. If i did, i apologize. I think each and every nurse, has to struggle to dig inside to find ways now and then, to find our compassion, or, find a way to let it go/not eat us inside, now and then.
Maybe you might find a job at Planned Parenthood could also help you feel fulfilled, feel that fire again that you described, as that place offers the two things proven to reduce unwanted pregnancies---low cost, easy access birth control, and, education.
Not that pysche patients do not want to be pregnant, no, not my point, but, many teens don't really 'want' to become pregnant, and maybe, your having seen so so many teens becoming parents while still kids themselves, might instill a passion for helping kids realize, Every time, use birth control, if you are going to be sexually active, use protection! kinda thing, who knows, might be a fire in you for this type of service.
I worked at a planned parenthood for a while, loved it, reeeally felt i was helping so many. I have a soft spot for teens, always have, i see them as large sized kids in a way. As humans continue to evolve, due to changes in our diet and nutrition, NOW the female human now begins to menstruate at about age 11 or so nowadays.............. but, only 1 or 2 generations ago, these same girls' grandmothers, did not menstruate til about age 18.
big change in our species in only 1 or 2 generations, eh?
And often with the onset of menses, comes many of the urges and feelings brought on by hormones, far far earlier than they are emotionally or intellectually developed to deal with. I think education and birth control are even more crucial in today's world than ever before, imo.
anyway, if you really do need a breather, maybe Planned Parenthood might be a place where you could bring an understanding of what is at stake for young kids who are more careless about their gonads than they should be. Or even volunteering.
for me, anyway, whenever i feel dry inside, i always get renewed again,
I volunteer in many kinds of orgs, from dogs to politics to poverty centers to community centers of all kinds to helping the blind, or oldsters (i also love oldsters) or teens at risk, to environmental groups. I find volunteering to be a very selfish thing, really, i get more out of it, than i am ever able to give. This might be something else to consider trying, to "rejuice" your own heart, for YOUR benefit.
I know, i know, it makes no sense, here you are--tired, struggling to cope with things in front of you, and here i am, saying "do more!" it makes no sense, but, for real, volunteering is so beneficial to stressed out people!! It's NOT like your job, i promise.
whatever is your passion,
be it dogs or babies at risk or politics or old people or poverty stricken people or your towns historical groups or whatever, find a group involved in your passion, and go there, pitch in, and see what happens inside your own heart. Worth a shot, anyway, cuz keeping one's heart soft can take actual effort now and then, especially when onslaughts of trials come along.