What a sad day August 21,2011 the day I messed my life up. I will begin my story with a short back ground of my nursing profession. I received my RN license 2004 which was the happiest day of my life. I was only on the floor for a short time and was asked to precept then before I knew it I was a charge nurse lead. I LOVED my job. Taking care of patients is my passion.
I was under a excessive amount of emotional stress
related to my family. I will not get into details but from Feb. 2011- May 2011 I almost lost my husband due to heart problems. Once he was stable from June 2011-Aug. 2011 a similar situation took place with my mother and her heart. during this entire time I continued to work and work overtime since the hospital was short staffed.
Not realizing how stressed I was (nurses think they are super human)
for some reason I took a lap top computer from a patient towards the end of my shift. I left went to meet my family at a restaurant and became aware of what I did. I returned it that same night. I was called into human resources the following day and terminated.
The patient did not press charges, but State Board of Nursing put it to me. Suspension pending a psychological evaluation. I completed it and the psychologist stated I did not have a problem with stealing but with stress and how to handle it. Recommend I seek 12 sessions of counseling which I completed and continue to see her (just for my own personal reasons). I have been on probation for over one year and remain on until I work 12 months as an RN supervised.
I have applied over 100-200 jobs and no bites. I have received the Daisy Award and multiple awards in regards to my passion, honesty, trustworthy and so on. This was a freak occurrence and I pay for it every day of my life. I am truly sorry for this happening to my license but in a way I am glad it happened because the counseling has opened my eyes to a whole improved me. I know trust is one of the ultimate requirements of being an RN and I am genuinely a honest person but paying dearly. Every day of my life since the incident I am heart broken
by what I did. Not just as a RN but as a person. This catch 22 is driving me crazy. My investigator says I should be able to locate a job but I have had no luck. I am thinking about calling one of my congressmen and seeing if there is any thing he can do for me. We have a state board meeting this month and I plan on attending with reference letters, all my job applications and what ever else I can figure out that might help my case. It was not until recently that I could even say I stole something with out braking down. this has affected me terribly and I need an out.
Thanks for taking the time to read my story and I am sure there are many out there that are going through a similar situation and my heart goes out to you