The Title pretty much sums it up...I am an LPN/LVN who was pressured by family into pursuing a BSN degree abroad in the Philippines. I will have been here a full Year in May. I have finally reached my point today...lost a grip on my professionalism as my sanity waned a bit...and made two comments which although feels really good to say has now made my relationship here with my "superiors" more strained...
The Statements: "nursing doesn't have a gender, race, or ethnicity. So wipe the drool dangling from your mouth doll." which I told to my proctor that always degrades and harasses me after she made an extremely ignorant comment. AND "Your ego is really slowing down my genius. check that **** at the door please. I came here to work." to My proctor after he pulled me aside from my duties in order to quiz me for 15 minutes on several different topics which we are not even covering yet along with his colleagues just to simply find something I didn't know. The final incident which caused me to act so irrationally was due to me being unfairly graded which has continued throughout my entire enrollment at this school. I have received 95% or higher on every single written nursing exam, however only 80%-88% on practical demonstrations of skills. It should be noted that it is so easy to forget that these professors are in fact professors because of their behavior...they act like high school students...Due to the Philippines not recognizing LPN/LVN's, none of my nursing subjects transferred. Because I have an Associate of Science degree however which I obtained through my local Community College, several of my science subjects were credited such as A&P, Microbiology, Health Edu, Chemistry, Pharm, English etc. Which shortened my time. In addition to my A.S degree which was earned separate from my LPN/LVN program, I also completed 7 months of a Paramedic program but withdrew upon acceptance into my LPN/LVN program, as well as a Medical Assisting program during High school through ROP.The reason why I state my educational background is to emphasize that although I have much to learn, which is why I came here in the first place, I am not incompetent. I also have experience in several different areas of nursing, and because of the length of time I spent in a Paramedic program I have additional assessment skills acquired through this training. The teachers here have really showed resentment towards me because of this and thus made it a point to exercise their superiority over me daily. I am disregarded routinely and can never seem to win. If I raise my hand and answer a question the teachers roll their eyes, if I don't know something they make it a point to state and emphasize it to the entire class. Because I have worked in a Hospital, I have a familiarity with U.S nursing practices, and therefore am accustomed to standards of care which to be honest is severely lacking here. I state this routinely as I refuse to jeopardize my integrity when providing nursing care and I stand up for myself whenever necessary, always ensuring to remain objective however and explain my rationale. This causes the teachers to state things like "you are not a nurse here", "you are not in the U.S", "this is the Philippines", "This is how we do things here", and today I received "if you think you deserve a grade above a 90% based on your demonstration than you should already be a nurse." and "not even god could change the grade i gave you because I am your professor and decide what grade you deserve."I am a confident nurse, but I am not cocky whatsoever. For this professor to give me an 82% however which is the same grade she has issued others who have not even taken health assessment yet is absolutely absurd and demonstrates her bias. We were suppose to simply demonstrate how to administer oxygen via nasal cannula, mask, tent mask etc. and articulate the importance and procedures of oxygen therapy. This is extremely basic. During my demonstration, since I have actually worked as a nurse I simply conveyed what I would normally do, ensuring I covered all the key points but also going in depth instead of simply stating like most students who do not yet possess these skills "I would listen to lung sounds". etc. I stated I would check the patients MAR before entering the room to identify if their was an order, look for the DX of the patient including history and existing conditions such as COPD etc., RX such as respiratory depressants, if labs were drawn and available such as ABG's/HGB etc, diagnostic tests such as PFT etc, baseline vitals and assessment, etc etc etc. I even gave here the normal lab values for ABG's! such as PH 7.35-7.45, Pa02 80-100mm Hg, PaCO2 34-45 Hg, HC03 etc. I talked her through an entire respiratory assessment, auscultating lungs, listening for rhonchi, rales, etc. checking mucous membranes and skin during assessment to identify signs of cyanosis and to rule out hypercarbia, hypoxemia. Retrieving vitals P, R, BP, O2 Sat, etc. administering the oxygen, all the way down to how I would document and then return in 15-30 minutes to recheck the patient. She than said "perfect" very sarcastically before handing me my eval paper which stated 82%. I asked her why I received that and she literally said that no one in my batch deserved higher than an 88% because that is the highest she will ever give one of us since we still have much experience and things to learn and we don't deserve a perfect score. I attempted to explain my case but was rebuffed by everyone including the dean being told absurdly rude irrelevant things such as "Lpn's are not real nurses Mr. Lucky(intentionally long pause on her part)...at least here in the Philippines.
"My family is pressuring me to remain here and complete my education. Not only do I not want to because of how negative, unprofessional, and biased the nurses are here, but also because I can identify how severely lacking the education is as well as how the overall practice of nurses in the hospitals are. I don't want a subpar education...I want to be the best nurse I can be...my family I feel is just looking at the cost effectiveness of things. Words of wisdom of any kind would be appreciated...even if its not encouraging...as long as I can grow from it...I welcome it. #HELP
roser13 your attempt was appreciated
Last edit by NrsLucky on Jan 28, '13