I became an RN in 94, single mom with 4 young sons, but did well and worked in hospital and LTC settings for 5 years. Had some s/s of a stroke at work one night at work,didn't tell anyone. Long story short, I was dx with MS in 99. Told by my employer that I could "retire" or I would be let "go". I left and went on Social Security Disability. I hated it and missed nursing. Went to a conference at a local college for women with disabilities. I spoke with nursing faculty and they told me I could get more education and stay in nursing. Again long story short(i know, this isn't short) through MS attacks, teen- age boys (one with bipolar), and thyroid cancer(and hypoparthyroidism) I received both my BS in Nursing and my MS in Gerontological Nurse Practitioner with a minor in Nursing Education. I don't think i could do the hours or the physical requirement to be an NP at this point, so I have been teaching for the past year and a half. Eight months ago I was dx with Crohn's Diease. I keep losing weight, tired ALL the time, the Doc can't really treat the CD because anything that would(i.e. disease modifiers) would make the MS worse. This past fall, I had an MS attack where i was in the hospital for 4 days and in the nursing home for 2 weeks. The CD Never goes away. The dean and the chair of the dept sent me home for 3 weeks b/c of pain and loose stools. I spend HOURS on lectures (8 to 12 hour days) The other day, my fellow teachers decided that we were to cover two lecture in one. That was 24 hours without sleep,can't remember what i was orginally going to teach. Got to school, checked my email and they decided not to lecture on the stuff I had stayed up to do. I know no one can make a decision for me, that is up to me. The stress, hours, dealing with two chronic diseases. The school and faculty have been wonderful, but if I am out ill any more, they are human, they won't be wonderful. Is it now time to say to nursing forever?
Any insite would be appreciated ...BTW research, community involvement, being published ....FORGETABOUTIT!