A list written by me for me. Also a list for new nurses, or not so new nurses. We all have lots of advice stored up from all of our experiences. We should share them, if only for ourselves. If not for ourselves, maybe our advice can help others as they navigate this profession called nursing. Nurses Announcements Archive Article
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"This is what reality shock feels like," I thought to myself as I stared at the little confused old man sitting on the edge of his bed, covered in blood from the IV that he just pulled out. It was quarter to eleven at night and I still had two more people who needed medications, foley catheters to empty, charting to finish, and now, another IV to start with an antibiotic to hang before my shift was technically 'over' at eleven.
As I stared at the mess that I was going to have to clean up, as that poor man held his blood covered hands up at me while saying "It's sticky" I felt a feeling that I have felt before. Anxiety mixed with panic mixed with adrenaline mixed with sheer exhaustion. Thankfully, the adrenaline instead of the exhaustion kicked in, I asked for help from my co-workers and they (bless their hearts!) finished my other medications while I cleaned the man up, started a new IV and hung his antibiotic in ten minutes- just in time(well, maybe not quite in time) to give report to the next shift and then wrap up my charting.
I have been a nurse for a few years now. I truly feel like I have gotten over the majority of reality shock that I felt for most of my first year of being a nurse. But I still have nights where that feeling comes back and I am humbled and reminded of what it feels like to be new or even that feeling of being absolutely unable to do everything that I wanted to do on my shift.
I have realized over the last few years that I cannot do everything on my shift and that it is ok to leave some minor things for the next shift to do. I do, after all, work in a 24/7 environment and I am not superwoman.
But when I am reminded of that feeling: anxiety mixed with panic mixed with adrenaline mixed with sheer exhaustion-it reminds me of a list that I have for the "New me RN" also known as the "List of things that your older self wishes that your younger self had known." I especially start thinking of this list in May, when all of the new nurse graduates are coming out of school and into the workplace, freshly pressed and ready to change the world of the sick. (I was that way, anyhow. Perhaps not everyone has quite that idea upon graduation.)
I want to share this list with you. I hope that it can be of help to someone and if not, that's ok. When I get my feeling again of anxiety mixed with panic mixed with adrenaline mixed with sheer exhaustion-and trust me, I will feel it again- I will just read my own list to myself, burn a lovely smelling candle, drink a delicious cup of tea and try to re-orient myself to why I love this crazy profession so very much.
And if necessary, add more to your list of advice to the younger nurse you. I know that you have a lot of knowledge by now. You could even post your list on allnurses and receive input from other nurses, to help make an even longer list, for you the 'older nurse' and maybe another younger nurse you.
Then pour yourself that cup of tea and read your advice again. After all, experience is the best teacher!
And maybe, just maybe, that feeling of anxiety mixed with panic mixed with adrenaline mixed with sheer exhaustion will slip away, until you are ready for work and to do it all again tomorrow.