Old and Ready to Give Up

  1. Dear Nurse Beth,

    I am in my fifties. I have been a nurse for 30+ years. For 15 years, I had a job I loved with co-workers, I loved. I left six years ago. My original manager left and was replaced by a person who did not like me and whom I did not like. Frankly, she was very dishonest person. Eventually, after I left, she was replaced.

    Recently I had a very difficult family situation. I left an administrative job and worked at a small hospital with a very toxic culture for a short time. The unit and hospital where I worked has had many nurses who last just a few months. Though I thought I could go back to my old admin job, it was eliminated.

    In the meantime, I have been caring for my relative. For the Fall semester, I worked as adjunct faculty which went well. The course I taught is only offered in Fall. I have applied to several other jobs, but have not secured another position. I was asked by the school to return next year.

    I had one interview and it was difficult for me to answer some of the questions they asked me to their satisfaction. I had been part of a friendly, but dysfunctional team in my last admin. position. When asked about my accomplishments and what projects I had led/completed, I stumbled. Honestly, we did not get a lot done in over 3 years. There was a takeover by a larger organization and three different nurse managers with whom I worked. The longest serving manager was a lovely person. However, she delegated significant tasks to staff who did not follow through. Projects I should have been involved with (and offered to participate in) were delegated to people who did nothing to move them ahead.

    I then had another interview. It was with the sister hospital to my place of brief employment, There was an open position which fit my qualifications. As a lark (almost...I thought they would not call),I applied. They actually interviewed me. It went well. Two weeks later, I got an email. They are pursuing other candidates. No other information available. I am not sure what happened. It may have been that I had quit the position at their other facility after just a few months. I was honest about this before I was ever interviewed and during the interview (I did not call it toxic). Three staff people from my former employer work at this facility. Perhaps they complained about me?

    So...coming up, I have another interview. Again, it is work which I have done before. I have MSN and multiple certifications. I am well qualified...but I am old. I don't ooze confidence. I used to love being a nurse. Between my family situation and lack of confidence, I am ready to give up. If I did not need to work, due to being so discouraged, I really would just give up. Maybe I should. I had even been accepted into a DNP program, but now cannot attend due to finances. What can I do? Should I go back to staff nursing and do adjunct on the side? It seems I have wasted so much of what I once had going for me. What can I do to boost my confidence and find that job I can retire from in 12-15 years?

    Dear I am Old and Ready to Give Up,

    Let me recap to make sure I have followed correctly:
    Your worked 15 years at a job you loved.
    You worked at an admin job for a short time and left.
    Life happened and a relative needed care.
    You worked at a small hospital for a short time and left.
    You worked at a seasonal adjunct faculty position.
    You've had 2 interviews which did not pan out and have a 3rd interview scheduled.

    Your resume is landing you interviews, which is not surprising with your experience and qualifications. But you are losing out in the interviews. You need to prepare carefully for your interviews to "seal the deal". You cannot afford to stumble in interviews when asked about accomplishments- you must be prepared, articulate, and positive.

    Don't refer to yourself as old (read Ageism in Nursing ) and don't offer excuses for projects that didn't move forward. Try not to focus on who did or didn't like you, as there is nothing you can do about that, and it's undermining your confidence.

    Instead project confidence and be ready to talk about the positive changes that occurred during your leadership. Did patient satisfaction scores improve? Did staff turnover decrease? Was anything implemented, such as RRTs or bedside report?

    You can get your mojo back It's not too late.

    My book below gives every interview tip and example you need to stand out and succeed. You will also learn what you may be doing wrong in interviews- all from an inside hiring manager's point of view.

    Best wishes,

    Nurse Beth

    Author, "Your Last Nursing Class: How to Land Your First Nursing Job"...and your next!
    Last edit by Nurse Beth on Feb 8
  2. 5 Comments

  3. by   llg
    I strongly agree with Nurse Beth on this. The OP sounds "old and ready to give up" in her post. I can imagine that she sounds that way in an interview, too -- and that is just not attractive to an employer. Employers want to hire people with positive attitudes and if you don't have a positive attitude, you need to learn to fake it. There must be some things about nursing that the OP can present in an interview and put a positive spin on it.

    I am in my early 60's, and a couple of years ago, went through a period when I just didn't feel like I wanted to "give" any more. Some days, I still feel that way. I fantasize about retirement a lot. But I know I can't show those feelings at work. So at work, I remind myself (and others) that even though I am nearing retirement, there are still things I want to accomplish ... I am still looking for ways to contribute to my profession and to my community for a few years more ... etc. Sometimes, it's difficult to put a smile on my face and tolerate some things at work that I don't feel I should have to tolerate. But I do it -- because I like the paycheck -- and because deep down inside, I'm not quite ready to quit. The OP needs to fake it for a while to get a job that will give her the opportunity to feel good about her career again. I wish her well.
  4. by   Knotanoonurse
    So I pulled it together and got myself a full time teaching job in an ADN program. It is actually kind of exciting to be doing something different! Of course, it is a learning curve but that is a good thing. I hope to hang on to this job for the long haul. Salary is ok, but nice benefits and time off. It is great to have a job again.

    I also have an interview after a phone call with the nurse manager for a prn summer position on a postpartum unit. Hopefully, I have learned from my mistakes and can keep moving forward in the right direction!
    Last edit by Knotanoonurse on Feb 13
  5. by   Nurse Beth
    Congrats!! That must feel so great to have benefits and job security Have a wonderful time with your nursing students, they are so positive and energetic. Hope you rock your interview.
  6. by   llg
    Congratulations! It sounds like you have landed a good job where your experience will be invaluable. I hope it helps you get a "second wind" that will carry you through the next several years.

    Good luck!
  7. by   inthecosmos
    YAY! I'm glad things worked out!