Nurses struggling with mental illness - page 42

I was just wondering if there are any other nurses who struggle with mental illness. It seems to be one disability that is met with little tolerance and support in the medical field. I do have major... Read More

  1. by   nursingstudent209
    I'm in nursing school, but took this semester off to deal with issues. Before class about a year ago, I was jogging behind my house and I was attacked & raped. I tried not to deal with it at the time because I had so many things going. Eventually four months after the attack I checked myself into a hospital because I wasn't coping very well and I didn't want to leave my house. I was scared all the time that I would be attacked again. However, when I was hospitalized the doctor diagnosed with bipolar and put me on medication. while I was on the medication, I became suicidal so I quit taking the meds. I decided to take the spring semester off and spend time with my family in Arkansas. Since I have been here I have been in therapy and I'm finally coming to terms with everything and I don't feel ashamed of what happened to me. I've reapplied to nursing school and I explained my situation and with god willing I will be able to reenter nursing school back in Louisiana for the fall semester. I do believe sometimes people are misdiagnosed.

    So, keep your head up and maybe attend therapy to help deal with your illness.
    Last edit by nursingstudent209 on Jun 17, '08 : Reason: adding a comment
  2. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Quote from nursingstudent209
    I'm in nursing school, but took this semester off to deal with issues. Before class about a year ago, I was jogging behind my house and I was attacked & raped. I tried not to deal with it at the time because I had so many things going. Eventually four months after the attack I checked myself into a hospital because I wasn't coping very well and I didn't want to leave my house. I was scared all the time that I would be attacked again. However, when I was hospitalized the doctor diagnosed with bipolar and put me on medication. while I was on the medication, I became suicidal so I quit taking the meds. I decided to take the spring semester off and spend time with my family in Arkansas. Since I have been here I have been in therapy and I'm finally coming to terms with everything and I don't feel ashamed of what happened to me. I've reapplied to nursing school and I explained my situation and with god willing I will be able to reenter nursing school back in Louisiana for the fall semester. I do believe sometimes people are misdiagnosed.

    So, keep your head up and maybe attend therapy to help deal with your illness.

    God bless you I am SO GLAD you are ok. I am sorry for what happened to you
  3. by   inthesky
    (((nursing student)))
    I'm really sorry that happened to you as well and I'm glad that you've worked so hard to get passed it. It is something that might always hurt a bit. PTSD is often misdiagnosed. I have found that symptoms of PTSD can overlap symptoms of many other illnesses.. bipolar disorder, borderline personality disorder, even psychotic disorders! OCD..etc.

    I wish you the very best <3 I've heard that the nursing schools in LA are very good.
  4. by   sharona97
    Quote from zoeboboey
    hi sharona, how did you get past me? lol

    Surprise!!!! Hope you are doing well.

    sharona
  5. by   kburns0016
    Wow I am soooo gald I found this thread~ I am recently D/X with Generalized anxiety disorder , panic attacks and bi polar disorder, and i cant sleep as well I am awake most of the night and want to sleep during the day to the point it is affecting my life (doc just rx'd ambien cr yesterday but i could not tell a difference last night)...right now I am in the stage where my Doc is trying to find the right fit for me Rx wise...have been through several meds including trazodone and seroquel...but now I am taking remeron, zyprexia, Librax and inderal with ativan prn! I start my NS classes this fall and I was sooo scared feeling like I was the only one going through this, finding this thread feels like a life saver to me! I am also looking at non drug interventions like exercise and journaling...but currently I feel trapped in a rapid cycling series of nightmares....I may be normal and "typical" for 12 14 or 18 hours , which are my manic periods then have an "episode"(named by my hubby) of uncontrollable crying, feelings of low self worth . The depressive episodes are easier to recognize in my case, I have come to realize that this latest series of episodes started after my school let out for the summer then I had surgery to remove my gallbladder and I was expected to be at home , in the house , alone with the kids ALL THE TIME! please dont get me wrong I love my children and I know my time with them is precious but I have a habit of not seeing to my needs (any of them)when I am a stay at home mom...I just give. give , give, give , give and give til I am all drained then I snap! I think the fact I am not sleeping like a normal person does not help either laying in bed awake til 3 or 4 am EVERY night begins to wear on woman after a while then once I fall asleep it takes a miracle to wake me ....I feel like baby with my days and nights mixed up.....awake all night ( regardless of meds)and falling asleep anytime I stop moving during the day~
    I am hoping once school starts back I will begin to level off a bit as I was doing so well before school let out this spring and I had that surgery...things really started going down hill after that~
    Maybe it is a good thing I am sooooo excited for school to start maybe that is a sign

    Any way thank you all brave souls for sharing your stories and support!
  6. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Quote from kburns0016
    ..please dont get me wrong I love my children and I know my time with them is precious but I have a habit of not seeing to my needs (any of them)when I am a stay at home mom...
    Glad you found us, check in often!

    I so relate to the above, but somehow my son came out ok despite my illness AND despite my taking care of myself
  7. by   Babs0512
    I can relate to the sleeping difficulties your having. I, too, regardless of medications, can be up most of the night, and your right, it does wear on you after a while.

    Your also insightful by recognizing that you "give and give and give..." and forget to take care of yourself. Now that you've recognized that, do take steps to correct it - it's easier to deal with a full plate when you've been getting proper rest, food and exercise. Taking some time just for you, may also be a great idea.

    Good luck, keep us posted. God Bless
  8. by   inthesky
    When i went to see my therapist today, she reminded me again that getting quality nighttime sleep is pivotal in controlling bipolar disorder. This echos my psych doc. How do you just sleep? My sleep meds are a mess.

    kburns, take care. Try and start to sleep at very regular times. You may have trouble at first. My therapist wants me to start sleeping from 11pm-7am.. its now 0000, but that is how life goes, i guess. but really don't get on the sleep during the day schedule.. I have never had anything destroy my neurochemical balance so harshly! I hope to sleep tonight and i hope you do as well
    <3
  9. by   kburns0016
    Thanks Babs...yesterday afternoon was awful...it had been one of those "giving" days and I finally just cracked when hubby came home and was trying to rush me out the door to Wal Mart of all places, I was so off my center I just needed to sit and think in a quiet environment for a few minutes but he was pushing pushing pushing..."come on hurry up you knew we were going all day come on lets go right now "
    ouch , I had a terrrible episode, crying and telling him to leave finallly about 15 miuntes to late he realized I was having an "episode" as he calls my depressive states...he did apologize and ask what I needed to feel better what he could do to make me feel safe , that was a nice change!
    Thanks inthesky :flowersfoI hope last night was kinder to you than it was to me ...I too tried going to bed at 11 even took my ambien cr at about 9:30 but I dont think this ambien cr is working for me (maybe it is the dosage ?!?! 12.5 mg)since I was still awake well after 2 am this morning . I guess I sleep during the day due to chronic exhaustion and then only because my kids like to sleep in and we homeschool there in no immediate cause to wake me up....I gradually start to come around about 9:30 or 10 am but I am a zombie the rest of the day often falling asleep every time I sit down.
    I hope you had some success last night :icon_hug: inthesky~
  10. by   inthesky
    I actually did sleep alright <3 I tried ambien CR for a week and it didn't get me to sleep either. I think maybe it just does not release enough at once? Anecdotally, i had some luck with ambien taken with ambien CR but that would have to be doc approved >_<. <3take care.
  11. by   Babs0512
    Try Ambien CR with Klonopin. I take both (prescribed) and it helps. The Klonopin helps with anxiety which then allows the Ambien to put me to sleep.

    Some nights NOTHING works, but this works most of the time.

    God Bless

    Babs
  12. by   kburns0016
    Thanks Babs I'll mention it ...my ambien cr RX is only seven days but I am pretty sure I will be calling my doc Friday as he is out on Thursday ( my rx goes til monday but I am not how much more I can handle) and asking him to try something else , possibly something stronger...please anything else, I am going bonkers here, without sleep I do not behave like a rational human being ...and it has been since the first week or so of April (my GB surgery was on april fools day) that I slept well and reality is starting to wear thin, I dont know if you know what I mean but it is the only way I can descirbe it~
    Any way thanks for the advice ...I think for tonight I am gonna take some Ativan with my Ambien CR and see what that does, cant be any worse than last night !
  13. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Hi guys, we're not allowed to give medical advice but people do share what works for them, ie "I use thus and such" versus "I recommend this or that medication". In light of which, I used Benadryl over the counter for sleep. At one point had to take 100 a night but now I rarely (less than once a month) need ANYthing. Right mix of meds, spirituality, self care. Have I mentioned the site http://www.bipolarhappens.com ? Designed by a lady who helps you develop self care plans, beyond medication. She also shows ways to get FAMILY involved so you DON'T get someone pushing you to do something when what you need to do is rest, for example. She did have an e newsletter but also has books and "sample health cards" for sale...

    Some tips on sleep hygiene at

    http://allnurses.com/forums/f240/sle...ne-257271.html

    God bless, you guys! xo
    Last edit by Liddle Noodnik on Jun 19, '08

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