Bipolar Nurse Hoping to Open Awareness of Mental Illness - page 5
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Hello everyone, I am new to the site and have chosen to join simply because of a previous post about mental illness and incredibly insulting comments that followed. I am posting a thread about this in an attempt to create more... Read More
- 1Apr 23, '13 by A1973I remember when I was in the LPN nursing program and a student was telling me about the very last final episode of One Life To Live. She kept saying that people were released or escaped from "the crazy house" and then she went on to tell me about what happened in the soap opera. I kept saying, "Oh you mean the mental hospital." She said "Yeah, the crazy house"
Every time she said crazy house, I would say mental hospital----but she was NOT getting the hint. I have a mental illness and I was appalled that she kept describing the last episode of this soap opera as people escaping from "the crazy house" and it seemed like the more I said "mental hospital" the more she said "crazy house". Perhaps its a good thing that she flunked pharmacology class and was kicked out of the LPN program. Who needs such insensitive, ignorant people like her caring for the sick (some of those sick people are mentally ill!). Good riddance!
- 1To the nurses out there with any sort of mental illness be it bipolar or depression or any kind of disability, you guys are my heroes and are definitely encouraging me to go after my dreams. I just got accepted to a nursing program and start in less than 2 weeks. I am absolutely thrilled that I get the chance to go after what I was meant to do. I am scared to admit what my diagnosis is, but I'll tell you, it ain't pretty. My condition occurred in the line of duty while I was in the Air Force from 99-01. I was medically separated and honorably discharged at the age of 19. I am 32 now.
For the past 13 years I was told that I will never amount to anything due to my condition, that I will never be successful. I thought that I was going to be a CNA for the rest of my life. But you know what, I stopped that negative thinking, I put my mind to pass my entrance exam and I did with decent scores and I am competent enough to go through the nursing program. I am not going to lie though, I am a little scared. In the back of my mind I can hear my ex-husbands words over and over in my head..telling me I will never do good in life and I will always be in fact a piece of crap. I try not to let it bother me, but it still does. Not to mention other family members (cousins) saying that "no wonder you haven't gotten anywhere in life" still ring in my head. I am so terrified of failing. But I really want this. When I passed that entrance exam I felt so damn proud of myself. I feel as if I put my mind to something that I can do anything. It might take a little more work, but I know I can do it.
I just need all the support I can get. My mother and father believe in me and so does my siblings and grandmothers..I just need to stop thinking so negatively and believe in myself. To sit hear and read of the stories and personal accounts on the nurses with disabilities has me feeling that I really can do this. I am not making a post just to get attention, I really just wanted to thank the nurses out there with disabilities that are proving their peers wrong by being awesome at what they do. You are an inspiration to me. Thank you.
- 1Quote from LadyFree28Thank you so much. This means a lot to me. I am so excited to start that I go to bed late, dream about school and get up early!! I hope Viva talks to me. She was the one to inspire me at first. I appreciate your faith in me.Thank you so much for replying.Congrats captain-serenity!!!
Take care of yourself, and believe in yourself. You have the ability to do anything.
- 2Jun 16, '13 by BeOne77You can do it regardless of your dx, where you have been but it's up to you where you go. Many people have terrible problems but go onto do great things. Don't let ANYTHING stop you....You already sound like an OVERCOMER...We all have situations we must deal with in order to get to where we want to go. (viva knows this about me and my current sit.) Don't give up and don't let anyone tell you you can't do what you want to do. Be strong, know that God is with you and is watching over you every moment. And could I also say have courage and stay positive. Ok now I have to follow my own advice...
- 1Quote from BeOne77You can do it regardless of your dx, where you have been but it's up to you where you go. Many people have terrible problems but go onto do great things. Don't let ANYTHING stop you....You already sound like an OVERCOMER...We all have situations we must deal with in order to get to where we want to go. (viva knows this about me and my current sit.) Don't give up and don't let anyone tell you you can't do what you want to do. Be strong, know that God is with you and is watching over you every moment. And could I also say have courage and stay positive. Ok now I have to follow my own advice...
Thank you BeOne, I appreciate your sincerity. I have to keep telling myself to stay positive too. It's a daily struggle with me when negativity likes to nag at me. I just have to keep telling myself that I can do this and to grab this bull by the horns.
- 0Jun 16, '13 by VivaLasViejas, ASN, RN GuideQuote from captain_serenityHello, captain_serenity, and welcome to Allnurses!!Thank you so much. This means a lot to me. I am so excited to start that I go to bed late, dream about school and get up early!! I hope Viva talks to me. She was the one to inspire me at first. I appreciate your faith in me.Thank you so much for replying.
I appreciate your comments very much. We never know when some adversity that we've gone through will serve to benefit others.....but when that happens, it's the best feeling of all.
As other members have said, you CAN do this. You are a survivor, and you have the right mindset for success. Yes, there will be times when life throws you a curve and you feel yourself slipping backwards; almost everyone with (or without) a mental illness has breakthrough events that rattle our cages and necessitate adjustments. But you have a winning attitude, and that will get you through when all else seems like it's falling apart.
I hope you come back often, and keep us posted on your progress through nursing school and beyond. Once you get to 15 posts, you'll be able to use the private messaging service and send PMs if you want to chat with someone off the boards. (Terms of Service still apply, of course. ) There are a number of nurses here with all kind of mental health issues---anxiety, depression, schizophrenia, and bipolar among others.
Wishing you the best, always!
- 1Jun 19, '13 by captain_serenityWell, an update on me y'all...At school there are only 30 seats available. There are 35+ people on the waiting list, myself included. Hopefully I get in. If not, I have to wait til October and I have a guaranteed spot. I really want to start in July. Not trying to be mean, but I hope that they people who are in have problems with funding, drop out, etc. I dont want to push this back til the fall. Im tired of working as a CNA, lol.
Since I am a veteran, I get the schooling paid for by the VA. I have no problems when it comes to the money part since it's there. I have the scores to get in and I just want to start already!! School costs 47k and I am so thankful and grateful for the VA. I also found out then when I complete the program, that I have a guaranteed job as a CNA instructor at the vocational school I went to where I got my CNA certification in the first place. The program director said that I need to complete a class in director of staff development and then I will be an instructor.
So either VA hospital or an instructor!! I am very pleased with this news. I also talked to the RN who trained me, her name is Sheila and I told her about my, ahem, condition and she told me this..."Congratulations Lisa,
I am so proud of you. Believe in yourself and you can and will accomplish your goals.
Keep me informed on how you are doing." I am happy that I got so many people that believe in me. This makes me want it even more. Thank you Viva and everyone else for your kind words and encouragement. It fuels me to be the best that I can be. I find out next week if I got a seat. I'll keep you posted. Again, thank you.