I've worked in the same hospital for almost 30 years, and for my current manager for a large part of that time. This is the same manager who helped me keep my job and supported me during my recovery in spite of my diverting drugs, and now I'm just over three years into a contract with IPN. As part of my employment contract, I submit to random drug screens through our employee health dept. The way it works is employee health calls him and he's supposed to escort me there. The last time this happened, he "outed" me to another manager (this person is a stranger to me), by telling her that he needed to bring me to employee health for drug testing (apparently he was going to be late for a meeting with this person). I was pretty upset over it, and the health nurse reported the incident to HR. I know he suffered repercussions, and even though I did nothing wrong, I feel like he's treating me differently. I've talked with him about it and he says he's fine with me. I'm trying to just let time heal it as I'm sure he feels hurt and betrayed. Within a week or two of this, I learned that he retracted his offer to re-train me to be an intervention nurse. This is in part a position he uses as a reward system. He's asked me when I can float again so I return to this job, and now suddenly and without warning he's taken my orientation to this position off the schedule. I confronted him about it and asked if it was in retaliation (without using that word, of course!), and he said to not read anything into it, but he didn't give me a reason. I asked him if I can just re reinstated to the position, as nothing has really changed about the job and I helped develop the position in the first place, and he said he'll think about it, but he hasn't given an answer. My clinical coordinator told me I'm one of the best clinicians on the unit and one of the best two people she's ever seen run a code....it seems like this would be a person who you'd want to be using as an intervention nurse. In spite of his support, things had changed between us even before this incident, and even though I'm a good and involved employee, I feel sort of disenfranchised. As an aside, a "junior" managers on the floor, who was once a good friend of mine (I used to even see her at 12-step meetings and talk for long periods of time afterward), abrubtly decided to unfriend me over a year ago, and things are very uncomfortable around her. I give all this background because I'm uncomfortable, frustrated, and feel held back professionally.
I'm thinking I'd like to transfer to another unit, but am afraid to while I still have two more years in IPN. The only advantage is that I have IPN support, but that's huge. I'd love some input from others.
Thanks for reading this and for any advice,