Off the wagon

[Elvish]

Hi guys. I'm back and really feel rotten.

I'm Arwen and I'm a sugar addict. It is perfectly legal but it will kill me just the same if I don't stop eating it like crazy. I was doing really really well there for about a month. But I have lapsed back into eating it - way too much. My mistake for thinking I could have some 'just this once.' Bad idea. That started the whole thing up again.

I feel like I have to hide it from my husband and my son - partly because I know my husband will get onto me about it, and partly because I don't want to share. How selfish is that?! I feel like if I don't stop, my son is going to have a mother that can't play with him or go to his sports games etc. w/out embarrassing him. Worse yet, a mother that he's had to BURY. Ugh. I feel so gross. I don't like the way my body feels when I eat this much junk food. I don't like the way it looks. I just like the way the sugary stuff feels on my tastebuds; once that's gone, the thrill is gone. I'm just really really mad and disgusted at myself. Disgusted enough to stop doing it. Again.

So I'm quitting. Again.

I'm gonna get back up on that horse and ride. Will need all the prayers and good thoughts I can get though. Addiction sucks.

[metnaj23]

Good luck!

Remeber that no one has abandoned their family, been to jail,or wrapped their car around a tree because of an extra piece of birthday cake:D

Recovery gives us a whole new set of welcome worries!

I overate at dinner and was grateful that I could be a pig with the peolple that I love LOL

God bless you

[Thunderwolf, MSN, RN]

You definately have my full support in keeping the sugars in check, Arwen. Very hard, especially when sugars(s) have become, in many ways, the staple of the American Diet. And when we do try to eat right, it becomes all too easy to fall off the sugar wagon...landing right back into the sweets. Like salt, sugar ladens our average diet....making us sick. And as a result, it becomes a damned if you do, damned if you don't situation. Sugar withdrawal vs sugar sickness...hell of a choice. I really do think that in some ways, some folks are more prone to crave the sweets more than others...not good in our American culture of processed foods....makes for a helluva ride. So, big hugs to you, Arwen, in your struggle. Big hugs.

As a side note:

Portion control and food substitutes (for sweets). Also, evaluate the healthy ways of eating utilized by others....Seventh Day Adventists have been rated as having one of the healthiest lifestyles regarding diet.

:flwrhrts:

[nightmare, RN]

Hi Arwen, try swapping the sweets for nuts(if you can eat nuts) I mix nuts with a little dried fruit for sweetness.Stay away from peanuts and cashews though ,they are high in carbs.Macadameas are the best for low carb.I have a rule,if I don't buy it and it's not in the house,I'm not tempted to eat it!!

[Thunderwolf, MSN, RN]

I have a rule,if I don't buy it and it's not in the house,I'm not tempted to eat it!!

Same here, nightmare. I hold the same rule for my place...sweets don't enter. My kids hate it when they visit.