New here and need some encouragement - page 2

My name is Lisa, and I'm an addict. Good, got that out of the way. I've been in TPAPN since Aug 2012. Sober since July 19, 2012. I'm sure my story is no different, no better, no worse than... Read More

  1. by   tka516
    Hello Lisa I am also in recovery and understand everything your going thru. I am so happy to be drug free and getting the help I wanted but like you its very hard to find the way back to employment after self reporting. I self reported in july and am in HPRP, Thats Health Professional Recovery Program. I have had a really hard time finding work. I almost got a job a month ago. When I interview I am honest in saying I had a personal Problem and self reported so I could get the help and support I needed. I have never told them I diverted. I explain the program to them and basically sell myself. Unfortunally my caseworker from HPRP told them I diverted and I lost that job offer. I was so depressed.Still am.
    I am still trying to figure out what to reveal in my interviews. Will I ever work again. I am totally broke. I am going to meetings weekly. Seeing my addictionist monthly. I call daily for random drug screens. I have been clean since July10th. I am ashamed of what I did. I wanted to get caught honestly because I wanted help so bad. I didn't want to be addicted anymore. I wanted my life back.
    I have been a nurse for 22 yrs working in Med Surg, ER, ICU. I am having trouble trying to think of what kind of job I can do. I can not pass Narcs for 6 months. I have to have a work site monitor so home care is out. I just don't know where to go from here. Any help would be VERY welcome.

    Finding this form has actually lifted my spirts. Its a comfort knowing I am not alone in this journey.
  2. by   GA_RN2006
    Tka516, I wish you the best of luck in your job quest. I understand completely where your coming from. I lost my job d/t diversion & was then turned into the BON. It was the most difficult day & best day all in one. If that makes since. Difficult in that I seen how disappointed everyone was & best bc I no longer had to deal with my addiction alone & I could finally get the help I so desperately needed. I haven't been able to look for work yet & I'm scared that when I am I'll just get rejected. Sorry I couldn't give you any advice in your journey but just wanted to let you know that you've come to the right site. There's some really good people on here & everyone is very supportive.

    Good luck
  3. by   FHL18
    Hi Lisa,
    I am new to this site and I am also a nurse living in the Dallas area and in recovery. I would love to chat more with you if you are still on here. I still don't know how this site works but I sent you a "friend request"...whatever that means, but I have been looking for a support group for healthcare workers for months around DFW with no luck. I can't believe a city of our size doesn't have something like this. But I am definitely looking for other nurses to meet up with to chat and encourage one another in our recovery. Hope we can connect!
  4. by   greygirl81
    I finished my program in Nov 2013 but basically had to beg for employment at one of the most poorly run nursing homes I've ever worked at and only did since I had as part of my program requirements. I left there last July for my mental health and started working as a substitute teacher and have continued to look for nursing work in the meantime. This past week, I was about at the end of my ropes. I was going to give up on nursing for good. I had went on my last interview. Then, I got the call yesterday.....I am officially employed as a nurse again! It doesn't ever seem to get any easier. It took me three months to find a job with my license on probation and doing monitoring and a one year with it active showing past probation. Keep plugging along it will happen. Also, if my husband and family hadn't been there with words of encouragement and sometimes a kick in the ass it might not of happened so get a good support system.
  5. by   hppygr8ful
    Good for you - The promises do come true -sometimes quickly sometimes slowly
  6. by   FHL18
    Lisa, I know you posted a long time ago but have you found a nurse meeting? Because there is one in Dallas. I live in DFW area and attend every Tuesday night. PM me for more info. I am in a very similar situation as you and am just starting to job hunt. Let me know if you are still around and how things are going. = )