Let me just say......Let the ignorant judge us most harshly. I am too smart to be stupid. You don't have to hit me with a brick to get me to understand addiction. Why are medical professionals held to a different standard when it comes to addiction potential than the community as a whole? Are we also less likely to smoke, drink, over-eat or any other self-abusive behavior that is considered socially more acceptable? And don't get me started on Peer Assistance Programs. Used to be an advocate for them, but one poppy seed muffin and your back in the program for another two years and don't bother paying out of pocket for the MRO to review it. It doesn't matter what MD, PHD, Therapist, Psychiatrist, Chemical Dep Counselor, Treament Center or even Jesus Himself says, if you eat a poppy seed muffin, you are in direct violation of your TPAPN contract and you WILL sign a new 2 year contract, go back into 5 weeks of treatment, restart your work restrictions and do 90 meetings in 90 days.........I don't care if you only had 4 months left on your original 2 year contract, never missed a meeting and did everything you were ever asked. We can hold your career over your head and bring you to tears daily no matter how far into recovery you are. You can be in complete remission (if that is even possible) TPAPN is here to make sure you wind up with a mental condition before we are done with you, even if you never had one to begin with, so shut up, bend over and take it like a man, because that is what nursing, recovery and addiction are all about. Making you feel small and ashamed. Just bitter for now. Maybe I should be an accountant. What sucks is, I am a really good nurse. And I did not relapse. I know it, and God knows it and that is all that really matters.