Several of us have been in the same boat. I tested positive for ETG last month after a year in the program (in California) and was immediately told to stop working as a nurse and then tested 8 times in a one month period. Luckily, my job kept me on as a ward clerk at the same pay rate for the time being, but every day I expect my boss to pull me in to her office and tell me they can't afford to keep me any longer. (I've been there for 4 years, no write ups, won the clinical excellence award for my facility last year...of course all this means squat to the BRN)
In California it's pretty standard they'll add on 2 more years of monitoring for a positive test. I get that for some monitoring is a life saver and they really benefit from the program, and I respect that. For myself, I'm in it because of a one time DUI I got prior to becoming a nurse which is no longer even on my record, no accident or anything. I don't consider myself an alcoholic and no one who knows me does either. For that reason, I've decided to look at other career paths. I can't stand not being free to live my life. I'm currently on vacation with my significant other in Seattle and Portland. We both work incredibly hard and never take trips together. So of course, the BRN decides to call me two days in a row to drop a sample Sat and Sun which results in me scambling to find a way to the testing center which is 30 mins away from downtown Seattle. Don't get me wrong, it's still a good time but I'm so sick of this.
Idk if you have a BSN but having a bachelors definitely opens up career paths, especially with clinical experience. I'm currently in the running for a customer service position with a healthcare startup that doesn't require a RN license, but the company would love to have someone with past clinical experience leading their team. I've had 2 interviews with them, hoping I land the job. It'd be about a 5 dollar an hour pay difference but, for me, it'd be worth it just to live my life again.
Youre not the only one going through this and please feel free to vent. I wish you luck and strength with whatever route you take.