Horrible day yesterday, today pity party

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    Yesterday, I felt the worst that I've ever felt in a long time. My doc got so frustrated with me and spoke harshly during a case. I've been in the OR 13 years, so I know how surgeons are, but I've always been so good at what I do, as a scrub or circulator. As a surgical assist, I'm struggling so much with the minimally invasive cases. I try to pat myself on the back in that I'm learning two jobs at once, being a provider and a first assist, but the pity sets in and I feel sorry for myself, and I just want to walk away from the surgery part, because I hate not being good at something.The sad thing is that I don't even know what I could do if I don't do surgery, it's all I've ever wanted to do from the time I was a scrub tech.
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    Sorry to hear that. Would it help to find time to sit with that attending so that you can get feedback on what it is that made him frustrated and what it is you could do to improve on? Your team is responsible for your learning and should extend any assistance to make this transition as smooth as possible.

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    Like every other skill you are only good when you have done it a ton of times. Hang in there.
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    Quote from juan de la cruz
    Sorry to hear that. Would it help to find time to sit with that attending so that you can get feedback on what it is that made him frustrated and what it is you could do to improve on? Your team is responsible for your learning and should extend any assistance to make this transition as smooth as possible.

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    Good advice and once I stop feeling sorry for myself, I plan to talk to him. I'm not sure if there was something else bothering him, because this week seemed full of criticism, especially about talking to patients too long. It's the part of the job that I love, but I am trying to limit how much time I spend with them. I'm so afraid of missing something important that I tend to overdo it. My doc is otherwise very nice and understanding about the learning curve, but I'm having doubts about staying with him once my fellowship is done. Thanks for the advice.
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    Quote from CrunchRN
    Like every other skill you are only good when you have done it a ton of times. Hang in there.
    Thanks for the encouragement. I keep telling myself I can do it.
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    I feel you on the talking to patients. It is one of the things I love to do. That is why I am trying to break into the palliative care field. I'm having a weird week as well. Give yourself a break, you are learning. Like all worthwhile endeavors, there are growing pains.


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