Hello everyone, This thread has been very uplifting to read. I graduated in May 2012 with my BSN and started immediately in the NICU. I was so excited! Out of 67 applicants, 4 of us were chosen and I was one of them! I couldn't believe it! My dream job!!! Then I had my first day... My preceptor was terrible, she ignored me and sat and gossiped with the other nurses and made me feel very unwelcome. My other preceptor was worse and I felt like I made a huge mistake and spent most days crying after work. Then I failed my NCLEX in July and had to leave the unit to work as a PCA on postpartum... They were so nice and wonderful and made me never want to leave them and my confidence came back... I retook my NCLEX and with the help of Kaplan, I passed! It was time to go back to the NICU and move to night shift. I have two awesome preceptors but one of them, my manager feels is not a strong nurse and will teach me bad habits so she no longer gets to precept me... I am now with 6 different preceptors and they all want me to do things their way... My preceptor yesterday said, after only being with me twice, says she doesn't think I have the right personality to work in intensive care! I am so discouraged right now! I read all of your posts on here and I'm wondering if it's me or if, maybe if, I was somewhere else and was getting proper training and encouragement that it would be different! I need advice! I'm reading NICU books and learning as much as I can but I feel like our NRP was kind of a joke... 3 hours and we are supposed to know how to run a code? I passed but I feel like if it was real then I wouldn't know what to do... The girls are clicky and if I make even one mistake the whole unit knows about it! I have one amazing preceptor and she says I am improving so much but I still don't feel like I am ready to be on my own! I thought about pulling this thread up at work during my down time and reminding a few of them that they were new once too! Thank you all for your posts... It gives me hope... At this point I also feel like I plan to stay a year and then move on! I KNOW that this is my dream job and I am not going to let anyone take it from me or make me think I can't do it! Good luck to all of you and I hope my story changes to become as uplifting as your stories are!!