taking hesi exit for the first time today

I am taking the exit hesi for the first time today, I am officially nervous, but not really freaking out. We get 4 chances. I want to pass the first time because I would really like to enjoy graduation. We still get to attend graduation, but I don't want to waste alot of money on graduation if I don't pass Hesi. It is not the time of year to be blowing money, Christmas is around the corner. The thing I am stressed out the most about is that I don't want to let anyone down, especially my family, my kids who have sacraficed so much-they never see me, I have really failed in the parenting department. Nursing school has its rewards, but also has some drawbacks, lets face it, you can not do everything and you can not be perfect at everything and I feel my kids have really suffered. They were not at the top of my list. They were not my priority. How could they be with working full-time, school fulltime, and everything else. So if I do fail Hesi, I am going to pick myself up and go on knowing that passing or failing Hesi does not define me and then hopefully I can get back to normal where I am spending time with my kids. Hopefully one day they will forgive me for not putting them first.:)