passed nclex :) 186qs

I promised myself to return and post my testimony on here after all the encouraging stuff that i got from here. I took my test last week and found out I passed the same day through the pearson vue trick. anyways so I had taken the nclex the first time last year november, did all the 265 qs and ofcourse the trick took me to the credit card page 100 times as i drowned in my sorrow, it was the most defeating feeling ever. I could not tell my nursing school friends that i had failed, i cut almost all social media to avoid seeing all my friends posts on how they were celebrating, i was depressed and hopeless. I had used ATI for a good solid two and half months. I had studied every single day, I dint work i had put all my time and effort on it. so janaury came and I decided to have a little faith and jump on the wagon. it took me a month to recover and shake off the defeat. i purchased the hurst review from all the good insights. i had debated for couple of weeks which to go with. anyways all tucked into hurst i did all their videos and got all the free nclex apps on my phone for extra practice. one of my good friends lended me her kaplan textbook and i eventually got a hold of kaplans qbank and qtrainers which, i will forever be grateful because as hard as those qs are, they toughen you up and develop stamina. the hurst videos, the kaplan qbank and lastly the la charity pda book got me feeling a little confident. I went back to studying 6 hrs a day jan,feb,till mid march. by march i had gotten the hang of what to expect, i had already done this test before. but i have to say, without God, faith, prayer, believing, i would not have come this far. the day before the test, as they say, take a break relax dont study.. well i wasnt gonna sit all day and relax with all this lab values popping in my mind. two documents that helped me alot on here was the study guide and the lab values sheet. unfortunately i studied almost seven hours the day before as you can tell. at 7pm i shut the books watched a movie and went to bed after praying and reading some encouraging verses. the day of.. woke up at 6am reviewed those lab numbers and left for my test. all the way i listened to some relaxing music, got to the test center and prayed before doing my test. started off pretty well, got to qs 75 it dint shut off but, as before, i was mentally prepared to sit through all the 265 but wasnt expecting to go passed at least 80. anyways at qs 86 i took a break cause i was getting anxious and not very focused. came back and prayed,prayed, got to qs 110 qs 150 and at this point i was almost crying. i kept asking God why, and i kept reminding myself, he brought me this far, to prosper me not to let me down. qs 160 qs 170 qs 180 and at this point i wasnt feeling like this is coming through. funny thing at qs 186, this qs was either u know it or you dont.. a medication for alcohol withdrawal and for crying out loud i couldnt relate the meds in my options. so i stared at the qs eliminated and was like well il try get the next one right. the moment i hit submit the comp shut itself. i almost cried, i wanted to take back that moment and take that particular qs seriously. but it was long gone. anyways, left the testing center confused as hell, forgot all my passwords for my phone, pearson vue, it was just then i realized i dint need to get all fussy about this, God was in control ..eventually i did get things together, and found the good pop up. I was so grateful to God for seeing me through.

all i can say is, dont beat yourself when it comes down to the test day, one question at a time, dont over think it, sata- true/false, get all your infection control figured out, review your ekgs, how to don and remove your ppe, blood transfusions reactions, order for admin, etc. pray, have faith, take a break when needed, breath, many have failed more than two, three times, you will feel depressed, shake it off eventually and get back on your feet, do not loose hope..you came this far already,you can do it. feel free to msg me if you have any qs on resources, or if you need a little jump start.sorry for such a long post it was way overdue