I guess waiting table is cake compared to the NCLEX

  1. I have waited tables and bartended for EVER and then was at a point in my life that I was sort of financially secure and was able to go to nursing school. I went to a four year program private school (RN-BSN) that cost me over 60,000. I am now a year and a half out of school and with 3 failures on the nclex. I am now poor again and waiting tables again. What is wrong with this picture. I have done everything possible, I think at this point that I must have multiple personalities and that it really was not me that attended nursing school. (HA HA). I am now doing Suzannes program but to tell you the truth I am so afraid to take it again. I am imbarrased to my family, my husband, my kids, my friends. This is worse than a nightmare. ALL of the people that I graduated with are working but ME. As a matter of fact MY study partner tells me the other day that to hurry up and pass the boards that SHE will hire me. That is crazy and unbelieveable that my friend is already there. I know that I am not the only person that is going through this, but I guess that I am having a pity party for myself right now. I mean I cry EVERYDAY and try and ask GOD why I can't open up my brain and retain the material. I have in life suceeded with all of my goals except this one. I graduaed high school, Served my country for 6 years in the Army, Got married and have Two little girls. I need this emotionally more than anything. I dreamed as a little girl of being a nurse and I don't want to do anything else. I hope that this was not a bore instead I have pretty much lived for this website everyday for inspriation. Thanks for all that care. You have know idea waht this site does for me emotionally.

    Brandi
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  3. by   DolphinRN84
    I'm sorry the way you're feeling right now. I think it's great you are working on Suzanne's plan now. I know you're afraid to take this exam, but I know you can do it. There have been people on this forum that have taken them 6 attempts and they still managed to pass. We know you can pass too. Keep the faith. With God by your side, anything is possible. Good luck to you! :icon_hug:
  4. by   Nursing28
    bmmNurse,

    Things happen for a reson. I truly believe that. You are not a failure. You made it this far. Did you know that there are many nurses who failed boards many times and then end up passing. They are wonderful nurses. It's not that you don't know, you know the content, how else would you make it through nursing school. Stay focused! Maybe it's your test anxiety...that plays a big part. Continue to study...I failed first time back in July 06 and re-took the test Oct.2. i kept telling myself, this is only temporary.....I studied my heart out and passed. I was more confident and did not second guess myself. I will be praying for you............good luck.........you have all our support here Mrs. RN soon to be.
  5. by   singlemom
    i dont really post a thread in this forum coz it seems to me most of the topicherepassing nclex is the only heavyload that are carrying right now sometimes i wish that im like you guys but by the time i read your messge i diceded to right just a short one in my part i have two sons to take with no fami;ly in USnot even friend but i survive im just renting a room i know its too personal but i told myself passing nclex is the big part financially especially i have two mouth to feed than kgod suzanne been helping me i know somewhrere down the road i can pass this test so just pray and be strong at least you have famil y willing to sopport you take care there is a saying in every tunnel there is always a light
  6. by   RNKay31
    Wishing you the very best
  7. by   luv2shop19mall
    i too am feeling the same way. well let me vent . . me and my husband finally decided to buy a condo. hes a lvn and i was still working for a dental office .. (receptionist) so i figured that my income with this dental and his income will be enough to pay for the mortgage.. it turned out to be a nightmare.. well i called in sick every week, then i cut down my hours to study for the exam, honestly have no savings account together.(nada) balance 0.. then everyday i would say im leaving you. im moving out. i dont want to be here anymore. so guess what happened??i got fired.. so i decided that i didnt want to loose him and there.. i am totall wrong cuz when i told him that i didnt want to go through with it. "he said why? i had made plans and im not happy with nemore.. right there just melted my heart.. he never tells me anything until theres something to blame me for. sothen he says you can stay here until you pass.. i said "no" so i left and he has no idea where i am but i know he is worried about me..he doenst have neone to contact to find me and the worse thing is .. my family doenst even know where married.. how awful is that./ so i explained to him that this is all happening becuz of everything going on ..everyday i would just say it.. he said well its too late. now i took my exam on the 21st .. still waiting.. no job no money saved up and my responsibility of paying the rent on the 1st. I dont know what to do.. and im so sad for saying all these things to him that he cant understand.. well he lost me.. so if he finds me then thats great.. i miss him so much . i cry to myself everyday, avoiding everyone , not the same with family cuz they dontknow.. im so sad.. and then im waiting on this.. my whole life depends on this.. ;(thanks for reading.. i feel like crying but i have to hold it. ;(
  8. by   bmmNurse2b
    Quote from luv2shop19mall
    i too am feeling the same way. well let me vent . . me and my husband finally decided to buy a condo. hes a lvn and i was still working for a dental office .. (receptionist) so i figured that my income with this dental and his income will be enough to pay for the mortgage.. it turned out to be a nightmare.. well i called in sick every week, then i cut down my hours to study for the exam, honestly have no savings account together.(nada) balance 0.. then everyday i would say im leaving you. im moving out. i dont want to be here anymore. so guess what happened??i got fired.. so i decided that i didnt want to loose him and there.. i am totall wrong cuz when i told him that i didnt want to go through with it. "he said why? i had made plans and im not happy with nemore.. right there just melted my heart.. he never tells me anything until theres something to blame me for. sothen he says you can stay here until you pass.. i said "no" so i left and he has no idea where i am but i know he is worried about me..he doenst have neone to contact to find me and the worse thing is .. my family doenst even know where married.. how awful is that./ so i explained to him that this is all happening becuz of everything going on ..everyday i would just say it.. he said well its too late. now i took my exam on the 21st .. still waiting.. no job no money saved up and my responsibility of paying the rent on the 1st. I dont know what to do.. and im so sad for saying all these things to him that he cant understand.. well he lost me.. so if he finds me then thats great.. i miss him so much . i cry to myself everyday, avoiding everyone , not the same with family cuz they dontknow.. im so sad.. and then im waiting on this.. my whole life depends on this.. ;(thanks for reading.. i feel like crying but i have to hold it. ;(
    I really hope you passed I will pray for you!!! Maybe you should listen to your heart and call him!!

    Brandi
    bmmnurse
  9. by   RNKay31
    Hopiny the both of you pass
  10. by   Nursing28
    wishing you all the best
  11. by   DolphinRN84
    Quote from luv2shop19mall
    i too am feeling the same way. well let me vent . . me and my husband finally decided to buy a condo. hes a lvn and i was still working for a dental office .. (receptionist) so i figured that my income with this dental and his income will be enough to pay for the mortgage.. it turned out to be a nightmare.. well i called in sick every week, then i cut down my hours to study for the exam, honestly have no savings account together.(nada) balance 0.. then everyday i would say im leaving you. im moving out. i dont want to be here anymore. so guess what happened??i got fired.. so i decided that i didnt want to loose him and there.. i am totall wrong cuz when i told him that i didnt want to go through with it. "he said why? i had made plans and im not happy with nemore.. right there just melted my heart.. he never tells me anything until theres something to blame me for. sothen he says you can stay here until you pass.. i said "no" so i left and he has no idea where i am but i know he is worried about me..he doenst have neone to contact to find me and the worse thing is .. my family doenst even know where married.. how awful is that./ so i explained to him that this is all happening becuz of everything going on ..everyday i would just say it.. he said well its too late. now i took my exam on the 21st .. still waiting.. no job no money saved up and my responsibility of paying the rent on the 1st. I dont know what to do.. and im so sad for saying all these things to him that he cant understand.. well he lost me.. so if he finds me then thats great.. i miss him so much . i cry to myself everyday, avoiding everyone , not the same with family cuz they dontknow.. im so sad.. and then im waiting on this.. my whole life depends on this.. ;(thanks for reading.. i feel like crying but i have to hold it. ;(
    I really hope everything works out! :icon_hug:

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