I have waited tables and bartended for EVER and then was at a point in my life that I was sort of financially secure and was able to go to nursing school
. I went to a four year program private school (RN-BSN) that cost me over 60,000. I am now a year and a half out of school and with 3 failures on the nclex. I am now poor again and waiting tables again. What is wrong with this picture. I have done everything possible, I think at this point that I must have multiple personalities and that it really was not me that attended nursing school. (HA HA). I am now doing Suzannes program but to tell you the truth I am so afraid to take it again. I am imbarrased to my family, my husband, my kids, my friends. This is worse than a nightmare. ALL of the people that I graduated with are working but ME. As a matter of fact MY study partner tells me the other day that to hurry up and pass the boards that SHE will hire me. That is crazy and unbelieveable that my friend is already there. I know that I am not the only person that is going through this, but I guess that I am having a pity party for myself right now. I mean I cry EVERYDAY and try and ask GOD why I can't open up my brain and retain the material. I have in life suceeded with all of my goals except this one. I graduaed high school, Served my country for 6 years in the Army, Got married and have Two little girls. I need this emotionally more than anything. I dreamed as a little girl of being a nurse and I don't want to do anything else. I hope that this was not a bore instead I have pretty much lived for this website everyday for inspriation. Thanks for all that care. You have know idea waht this site does for me emotionally.