Pranqster 1,988 Views
Joined Jun 22, '12.
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Prayer helps a lot. It also helps to realize and accept that God is in charge ultimately. That has made it easier to let all people live their
roles - police, prosecutors, defenders, us nurses, docs, even the innocent victims. Doesn't mean I don't share your pain and anger, only that I have learned that there isn't always something I can do to change it, so I pray for the victims and the perpetrators and do my level best to give tender, loving, expert care.
With a lot of people I just have to figure they live what they were shown by whoever brought them up. They might very well have been maltreated themselves. And take the example you gave, OP, of the mother whose child just died and she was yelling and cursing at another child, I think you said, to be nice to her because her baby had just died. Imagine the lack of true love and value she must feel in her own existence. God alone knows why.
It helps to believe in Heaven and that these innocents, these precious, defenseless angels will be so happy up there. Why do we have to pass through this earthly existence first? I don't know but have learned to accept that we just don't get all of the answers in this realm.
Don't judge a book by its cover. Try to accept that each of us is going to show pain, grief, fear, and other emotions differently. We aren't all going to cry or scream or tear our hair out or be grateful to staff. That doesn't mean each person isn't dying a thousand deaths inside, punishing ourselves for not doing more or better, etc.
You don't have to avenge wrongs. Leave that to God, who promises that He will repay. His timing and His ways are just different than ours. Give excellent care while you can. That is, apparently, your calling, at least for now. Perhaps you are being led to a career in law enforcement, law, or social work. Whatever the case, I wish you all the best. Thank you for being one of the good guys.
Another thought - try journaling, keep coming back here to vent. Look into volunteering with CASA (Court Appointed Special Advocate for kids in foster care). As others have suggested, learn to compartmentalize. God bless you.
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