Hi everyone. , I'm a 31 year old pre nursing student and this is my first post. I felt like sharing my good news here since I figured this would be the best place to do so.
I was overjoyed when I got my acceptance letter a few days ago. I honestly didn't think I would get in on my first try and I'm extremely proud of myself because I worked really, really hard to get to this point.
It's been a few days, and while I'm still really happy about my acceptance, I'm now terrified, scared, anxious, confused......Getting into nursing school is what I have wanted for a long time now.
I'm wondering: did anyone else here feel this way after the initial excitement of getting accepted? I keep feeling like I can't do this. That the school was wrong to accept me. That I will now have people's lives in my hands and I'm not going to be able to do it. I'm terrified of failing. This is the scary part of all of this.
The other part of this, the part that hurts me more than anything else, is that my family doesn't care (it's a long story, but I grew up in foster care I "reconnected" with my birth family as a teenager). I feel like because I didn't know them growing up, that they have just forgotten about me. Maybe I am too proud of myself or something, or too needy, but it's hard to accept that I have nobody aside from my friends and my boyfriends family to be proud of me (please don't misunderstand, the fact that they are proud of my accomplishments means a lot to me, I'm not negating them in any way.) My father died a few years ago from a stroke. I was in the room when he was on life support and had to say goodbye wondering if he ever loved me. My mom is an alcoholic and doesn't understand how important this is. This isn't a pity party or anything. I'm not asking anyone to feel sorry for me. I guess I just need to vent or something. And I thought maybe this could be a place where people will "get it" and also be able to answer some of these questions for me.
i apologize for the long post. Even if nobody responds, I'll be happy knowing that at least someone reads this and maybe understands where I'm coming from.
