May 5, '07
Clinical ends six days from now.
The last day of school is 10 days from now.
The cruise we go on to celebrate this monumental achievement is 34 days away.
This week I saw the professor that gave me the boot last year. I was not sure what I'd say to her if I ever saw her. Every time I'd gotten a glimpse of her, my stomach would turn. Seeing her is what I needed though. Closure. I told her what I had to tell her, and did so right in front of my current professor (who was also there last year), and she told the one that gave me the boot that I've done a great deal of work to get through it. I feel like my burden has lightened.
In clinical yesterday I did OK. I found it hard to focus at times, but I was otherwise OK. Another professor could have exploited any nervousness and taken the opportunity to write me up. Not this one. I told her that I appreciated how great she's been. I also told her some other stuff I wanted her to know. We had a nice conversation, and she gave me one of two recommendation letters she wrote for me. Very nice. The second one references the past, and how I've worked through it to resolve any issues that may affect my clinical performance. I'd requested that in the event a recruiter has concerns about the repeat of my last semester, since one recruiter I spoke to said she'd have concerns.
Six days from now, I'll be walking to my car after the last clinical, probably crying from the feeling of relief.
Last edit by NurseDaddy2006 on May 5, '07